Lost Stuck and going back to tramadol

[kpunk2017]

I find myself posting here yet again, its saturday and I dont got any plans, 0 social life since I started uni, haven't made any friends yet, I have already talked to the tramadol dude, also my therapist told me to schedule a visit with a psychiatrist so I did that, I might have depression, I still fucking miss this girl and its so exhausting, I feel like a shell of what I was, im hoping antidepressants will help me, but there are so many people that say just the opposite, im kinda scared, i've been fantasizing about suicide this month, im too much of a pussy to even cut myself though, im behind in my classes, only good thing that happened to me is my parents gave me some money to buy clothes and now I can cosplay keith richards, but I still have a lot of it and im afraid its going towards drugs, I may be able to afford a tattoo too even though my dad would not be very fond of that but f that. hope the rest of you are doing well and find peace, be grateful ily

 

[Conky]

You should find something to do that doesn't involve drugs

Go volunteer at your local animal shelter or something

Pet some cats and take dogs for a walk

Try reading also, lots of great authors out there

 

[kpunk2017]

You should find something to do that doesn't involve drugs

Go volunteer at your local animal shelter or something

Pet some cats and take dogs for a walk

Try reading also, lots of great authors out there

Im majoring in philosophy so the reading is always there, I put myself in a bad situation w my timetables cause I have to travel there everyday and is like 3h and 2 minimum of class so i come baxck pretty tired, thats also why im kind of behind, It will get fixed next semester i guess