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Rapid Fire Round:
1.) Tolerance. Where do it come from? Is more the drug or personal biology? As in, will tryptamine tolerance generally build and subside pretty reliably in most people taking the same doses or is there large variation?
2.) Is there something we can do to affect tolerance or recover it faster. (I am not some psychedelic demon fiend, just wondering if I wanted to trip twice close together if there are ways to augment tolerance? Diet and exercise? Drinking goat piss? Excessive masturbation? (No effect, evidently), anything else which might help tolerance return more quickly?
3.) Took 56mg of 4-Aco-DMT two nights ago and had a very strange experience. Very nice trip with faster and more active visuals than I've experienced before in my few explorations into psychedelics. But had a truly unique experience of full on short term/personal memory loss. Like amnesia right out of a movie, no anxiety, just a complete dead spot in my memory.
Emerged from my bedroom to encounter my best friend and very experienced trip sitter. In full possession of my faculties in some sense, but completely deranged in another. Example:
(N= My pal Nick, Me=Me)
N: Oh, hey dude. How are you feeling?
Me: Oh, alright, I suppose.
N: I was going to step outside for a drink and a campfire, what do you think?
Me: Yeah, that could be nice. Wouldn't mind looking around at a different environment or some new textures to hallucinate upon.
N: Sounds good.
We step out upon backyard deck into the cool night air.
N: So, what's been going on?
Me: Hmmm. Not sure.
N: Oh? How so?
Me: (Slight embarrassed laugh) Ah, I'm sorry. I hope it's not rude, I just have no idea who you are. I mean, I'm picking up the cues we're friends and I'm some guy you know, and there's no panic or anything, but forgive me, I just can't seem to place who I am or who you are...haha, I apologize, everything else seems to be in place. I know I took a dose of hallucinogens and there's no anxiety, quite the opposite, it's kind of like a comic version of Total Recall, but it's just not there.
N: Haha, no sweat, that's just where you are.
We have a campfire, I cannot for the life of me remember any detail about my own life, and I'm laughing every now and then because I know I am some guy with amnesia, but none of his anxieties or problems are mine at the moment, and I might as well be walking around a guest in some stranger's house. I open the fridge, and there are several bottles of diet coke.
Me: Boy, I guess this guy likes his diet coke, huh? Holy shit, there's a lot of empties.
N: Dude, it's weird. You drink a lot of that stuff.
Me: Huh.
Nick goes to take a leak, I am hanging out like a stranger waiting in someone's kitchen. I open the dishwasher and start drying dishes. Nick comes back in.
N: What're you doing?
Me: I dunno, I figured the least I could do is this poor bastard's dishes while I'm standing here. He may wind up with a spatula in the freezer or wonder why his crock pot is in the wrong drawer, because I have absolutely no recall of which cupboards hold which cutlery or plates and such.
We are both chuckling a little.
N: If you're game, I was going to go out to the store and get a couple of goodies and a lottery ticket. You can stay in the truck, we'll take yours.
Me: Sure, I'm game. Just following your lead, pal.
Exit house and some big black pickup is in the driveway. I stare at it like Marty McFly after he changes the future and his truck is sitting in the garage waiting for him at the end of Back To The Future. (This is literally a good comparison, those moments in the series where they come back from time travel not knowing what's been changed, but it's still vaguely familiar, except still have no real memory of who I am).
Anyhow, goes on like this for a considerably long time. 2+ hours without any recovery from the specific personal amnesia.
Has anyone else ever had this super high-functioning cognition in terms of thinking and acting completely clearly and reasonably without confusion even in public interactions and exchanges at the corner store, yet sense of personal identity was completely scattered and personal memory and facts about who I was and my own life were suspended in derangement?
I knew my bank card PIN#, not my last name. Knew the drug and dose I took, did not recognize my truck as my own. Knew what a 7-11 was and how to comport myself in purchasing a beverage and a small snack, did not know my job, if I had a wife or children, pets, etc. Truly unique experience to be so mindful of your own amnesia. I think it must have been close to what brain damaged or concussed people feel without the distress of injury or fearful circumstances since I still possessed the knowledge that I had taken 56mg of 4-AcO-DMT at some point and that these were the temporary effects. I could have played trivial pursuit or a game of cards if you'd have asked me. Just couldn't wrap my head around how I could have recovered my senses so much in almost every aspect of normal cognition, but had this super-specific "dead zone".
That's enough for now. Would be very curious to hear if people have had these effects or disassociated in this way before, particularly on 4-Ac0-DMT?
-GA
Rapid Fire Round:
1.) Tolerance. Where do it come from? Is more the drug or personal biology? As in, will tryptamine tolerance generally build and subside pretty reliably in most people taking the same doses or is there large variation?
2.) Is there something we can do to affect tolerance or recover it faster. (I am not some psychedelic demon fiend, just wondering if I wanted to trip twice close together if there are ways to augment tolerance? Diet and exercise? Drinking goat piss? Excessive masturbation? (No effect, evidently), anything else which might help tolerance return more quickly?
3.) Took 56mg of 4-Aco-DMT two nights ago and had a very strange experience. Very nice trip with faster and more active visuals than I've experienced before in my few explorations into psychedelics. But had a truly unique experience of full on short term/personal memory loss. Like amnesia right out of a movie, no anxiety, just a complete dead spot in my memory.
Emerged from my bedroom to encounter my best friend and very experienced trip sitter. In full possession of my faculties in some sense, but completely deranged in another. Example:
(N= My pal Nick, Me=Me)
N: Oh, hey dude. How are you feeling?
Me: Oh, alright, I suppose.
N: I was going to step outside for a drink and a campfire, what do you think?
Me: Yeah, that could be nice. Wouldn't mind looking around at a different environment or some new textures to hallucinate upon.
N: Sounds good.
We step out upon backyard deck into the cool night air.
N: So, what's been going on?
Me: Hmmm. Not sure.
N: Oh? How so?
Me: (Slight embarrassed laugh) Ah, I'm sorry. I hope it's not rude, I just have no idea who you are. I mean, I'm picking up the cues we're friends and I'm some guy you know, and there's no panic or anything, but forgive me, I just can't seem to place who I am or who you are...haha, I apologize, everything else seems to be in place. I know I took a dose of hallucinogens and there's no anxiety, quite the opposite, it's kind of like a comic version of Total Recall, but it's just not there.
N: Haha, no sweat, that's just where you are.
We have a campfire, I cannot for the life of me remember any detail about my own life, and I'm laughing every now and then because I know I am some guy with amnesia, but none of his anxieties or problems are mine at the moment, and I might as well be walking around a guest in some stranger's house. I open the fridge, and there are several bottles of diet coke.
Me: Boy, I guess this guy likes his diet coke, huh? Holy shit, there's a lot of empties.
N: Dude, it's weird. You drink a lot of that stuff.
Me: Huh.
Nick goes to take a leak, I am hanging out like a stranger waiting in someone's kitchen. I open the dishwasher and start drying dishes. Nick comes back in.
N: What're you doing?
Me: I dunno, I figured the least I could do is this poor bastard's dishes while I'm standing here. He may wind up with a spatula in the freezer or wonder why his crock pot is in the wrong drawer, because I have absolutely no recall of which cupboards hold which cutlery or plates and such.
We are both chuckling a little.
N: If you're game, I was going to go out to the store and get a couple of goodies and a lottery ticket. You can stay in the truck, we'll take yours.
Me: Sure, I'm game. Just following your lead, pal.
Exit house and some big black pickup is in the driveway. I stare at it like Marty McFly after he changes the future and his truck is sitting in the garage waiting for him at the end of Back To The Future. (This is literally a good comparison, those moments in the series where they come back from time travel not knowing what's been changed, but it's still vaguely familiar, except still have no real memory of who I am).
Anyhow, goes on like this for a considerably long time. 2+ hours without any recovery from the specific personal amnesia.
Has anyone else ever had this super high-functioning cognition in terms of thinking and acting completely clearly and reasonably without confusion even in public interactions and exchanges at the corner store, yet sense of personal identity was completely scattered and personal memory and facts about who I was and my own life were suspended in derangement?
I knew my bank card PIN#, not my last name. Knew the drug and dose I took, did not recognize my truck as my own. Knew what a 7-11 was and how to comport myself in purchasing a beverage and a small snack, did not know my job, if I had a wife or children, pets, etc. Truly unique experience to be so mindful of your own amnesia. I think it must have been close to what brain damaged or concussed people feel without the distress of injury or fearful circumstances since I still possessed the knowledge that I had taken 56mg of 4-AcO-DMT at some point and that these were the temporary effects. I could have played trivial pursuit or a game of cards if you'd have asked me. Just couldn't wrap my head around how I could have recovered my senses so much in almost every aspect of normal cognition, but had this super-specific "dead zone".
That's enough for now. Would be very curious to hear if people have had these effects or disassociated in this way before, particularly on 4-Ac0-DMT?
-GA
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