Apologies if I've posted this in the wrong place;
Couldn't decide between here and the cannabis forum but you guys are probably more on my level.
Furthermore I understand that many of you have probably seen a thread like this multiple times but I believe I have a semi-unique case
if you are knowledgable on psychedelics ruining bud smoking and bad trips from cannabis with a psychedelic variable. Please please read this I need some advice
The story begins as follows
Me 18, get high quite often.
Took tab of acid couple months later I was fine. Saw letters moving around on my phone during the high as well as other stuff obvs
A couple weeks later I got baked and saw the same letters moving around on my phone!!!(the end of letters would simply move back and forth) this was distressing but I didn't think much of it.
Went to Amsterdam smoked everyday ofc took truffles again no bad trip I just felt a bit...acidy...went back home smoked heavily (at this point smoking wasn't as fun since we did it so much) so I took a 2 day break. Felt very odd, enjoyed having naps a bit too much.
Started smoking again was ok until 1am where when lying down I suddenly noticed my breathing. I felt that I was automatically not breathing. I went into hyperdrive thinking I had god damn lung cancer or pneomonia or some other damn illness felt so sick and dying that I went to hospital I was so anxious through it and by god I was seeing letters move again. After this I carried on smoking for a week with no problems then I stopped indefinitely. I seem to be hyper aware of my breathing and still am to this day which is distressing. I felt depersonalised for a couple days and very anxious. I seemed to have developed health anxiety. So anyway I left it for a while a 1/2 week break and I started again. 3rd day of smoking everyday I had another anxiety attack and this time thought one of my ribs had collapsed. Saw letters moving yet again. I managed to sleep that night so didn't feel very anxious at all after it and I felt ok
To this day I still have a breathing fixation
I've stopped all drugs as of now but my question is what the hell is/was going on with me and is there ever a chance of smoking up again and enjoying it?
I'm not doing any more psychedelics as I don't believe my brain agrees with them. But the damage is already done.
Thank you so much for a reply in advance.
I've been really sad and distressed about the possible long term ramifications of my drug usage.
(One more point when I had the panic attacks while high the letters moving would persist until I calmed down be it couple of hours or multiple hours)
Feel free to ask any questions about it
Couldn't decide between here and the cannabis forum but you guys are probably more on my level.
Furthermore I understand that many of you have probably seen a thread like this multiple times but I believe I have a semi-unique case
if you are knowledgable on psychedelics ruining bud smoking and bad trips from cannabis with a psychedelic variable. Please please read this I need some advice
The story begins as follows
Me 18, get high quite often.
Took tab of acid couple months later I was fine. Saw letters moving around on my phone during the high as well as other stuff obvs
A couple weeks later I got baked and saw the same letters moving around on my phone!!!(the end of letters would simply move back and forth) this was distressing but I didn't think much of it.
Went to Amsterdam smoked everyday ofc took truffles again no bad trip I just felt a bit...acidy...went back home smoked heavily (at this point smoking wasn't as fun since we did it so much) so I took a 2 day break. Felt very odd, enjoyed having naps a bit too much.
Started smoking again was ok until 1am where when lying down I suddenly noticed my breathing. I felt that I was automatically not breathing. I went into hyperdrive thinking I had god damn lung cancer or pneomonia or some other damn illness felt so sick and dying that I went to hospital I was so anxious through it and by god I was seeing letters move again. After this I carried on smoking for a week with no problems then I stopped indefinitely. I seem to be hyper aware of my breathing and still am to this day which is distressing. I felt depersonalised for a couple days and very anxious. I seemed to have developed health anxiety. So anyway I left it for a while a 1/2 week break and I started again. 3rd day of smoking everyday I had another anxiety attack and this time thought one of my ribs had collapsed. Saw letters moving yet again. I managed to sleep that night so didn't feel very anxious at all after it and I felt ok
To this day I still have a breathing fixation
I've stopped all drugs as of now but my question is what the hell is/was going on with me and is there ever a chance of smoking up again and enjoying it?
I'm not doing any more psychedelics as I don't believe my brain agrees with them. But the damage is already done.
Thank you so much for a reply in advance.
I've been really sad and distressed about the possible long term ramifications of my drug usage.
(One more point when I had the panic attacks while high the letters moving would persist until I calmed down be it couple of hours or multiple hours)
Feel free to ask any questions about it