kickitnow
Bluelighter
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- Aug 23, 2016
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So, my latest attempt to kick heroin was going real well. I was 72 hours clean and staying on top of my cravings, the normal WD had started to subside a bit, I even got a tiny bit of sleep the night before.
I had an appointment at a drug clinic on the 3rd day clean. So yesterday to "discuss options" which was basically them trying to get me onto subs, which is understandable. It requires me sacrificing overseas travel which I can't do.
So, they gave me a script for Naltrexone instead, said to pop a 25mg the same day to see how it went. I should point out that I did a piss test earlier which clearly said I had opiates still in my system. Faint but they were there. But still, doctors orders so I popped the tablet.
Big. fucking. mistake. within 20 minutes I was in the worst withdrawals of my life. It felt like a spiked cannonball hit me in the gut and lodged itself there. puking, muscle spasms achy pains came on soon after. RLS and tossing and turning all fucking night. It's like all the symptoms hit you at once. I took it about 5pm and settled in for a night of pure hell. I had some temazepam on hand so I took 40mg and eventually settled into a feverish pass out of consciousness.
Anyway it's the next day now. Still muscle cramps in the guy and liquid shit, Immodium seemed to help at 18mg which I was worried wouldn't do jack. I crawled into the clinic the minute they opened this morning and couldnt do much for me but send me to a doc to ask for a valium script.
Worst part of it all is that I know using again is a fools errand after using naltrexone so there's no end. At least I've locked in the next couple of days clean.
I shoulda just kept on with my cold turkey detox, I was doing so well but this has really shaken me. It feels like the withdrawals were totally reset and way worse than day 2. wtf. I had been using lope day 2. Would the naltrexone effect that? The doc who prescribed the naltrexone didn't think it would.
Sorry I'm all over the place, jittery and skitish af. Really worried I've set back my detox, I was doing everything right this time.
I had an appointment at a drug clinic on the 3rd day clean. So yesterday to "discuss options" which was basically them trying to get me onto subs, which is understandable. It requires me sacrificing overseas travel which I can't do.
So, they gave me a script for Naltrexone instead, said to pop a 25mg the same day to see how it went. I should point out that I did a piss test earlier which clearly said I had opiates still in my system. Faint but they were there. But still, doctors orders so I popped the tablet.
Big. fucking. mistake. within 20 minutes I was in the worst withdrawals of my life. It felt like a spiked cannonball hit me in the gut and lodged itself there. puking, muscle spasms achy pains came on soon after. RLS and tossing and turning all fucking night. It's like all the symptoms hit you at once. I took it about 5pm and settled in for a night of pure hell. I had some temazepam on hand so I took 40mg and eventually settled into a feverish pass out of consciousness.
Anyway it's the next day now. Still muscle cramps in the guy and liquid shit, Immodium seemed to help at 18mg which I was worried wouldn't do jack. I crawled into the clinic the minute they opened this morning and couldnt do much for me but send me to a doc to ask for a valium script.
Worst part of it all is that I know using again is a fools errand after using naltrexone so there's no end. At least I've locked in the next couple of days clean.
I shoulda just kept on with my cold turkey detox, I was doing so well but this has really shaken me. It feels like the withdrawals were totally reset and way worse than day 2. wtf. I had been using lope day 2. Would the naltrexone effect that? The doc who prescribed the naltrexone didn't think it would.
Sorry I'm all over the place, jittery and skitish af. Really worried I've set back my detox, I was doing everything right this time.