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[suzieq70s]

Hopefully I posted in the right forum. But here it goes

I hold it all inside me
In nobody I'm confiding
My heart and brain it's dividing
For me I'm never siding
This I'm deciding
My own chastising
Of myself...self criticizing
These feelings I'm fighting
In letting go not abiding
On my nerves it's grinding
In a coil I am winding
So tight no way of finding
A way of binding
Together my undermining
Nothing wrong I know it's trying
I say I'm fine I know I'm lying

Now my pain is leaking out
It's peaking out
It's creeping out
So much for my keeping out
Because it's seeping out
Like a vice it's squeezing now
There is no sneaking now
My mind is breaking now
Realness displeasing now
My heart is freezing now
Raw emotions squeaking out
My sanity is creaking now
Feel like shrieking now
And I'm seeking out
A way of speaking out
Without freaking out

Too late it's going up
I'm blowing up
It's bestowing what
Is rolling up
And it's bloating up
Floating up
No controlling what
Is extolling what
Is flowing up
Foregoing what
Crazy showing up
No sign of slowing up
Feel like throwing up
And I'm knowing what
Is consoling what
Is my mind again folding shut