Just returned from my deepest experience yet with psilocybin.
I have taken 4 trips in the last couple of weeks, and for the first time been able to get a bit of a look at the possibilities of psychedelic exploration, therapy, etc. Suffice it to say; I am fascinated and intrigued beyond words about what can be 'brought back'.
I have been chewing through as much information as I can muster about 'psychic' exploration. As most of you likely already have come to realize, it is possible to not only access, but to navigate and explore previously inaccessible levels of consciousness and brain states! I feel almost exactly the same way I did when I began scuba diving and interacting with alien ecosystems! This truly is a pioneering frontier there is no way to have imagined before having touched it.
So here I am, like a wide-eyed baby who has just taken the first steps into a larger world. The next reasonable step is to ask lots of questions of experienced trailblazers.
1.) So my mind has been blown, my enthusiasm level is at a maximum. Can't wait to go diving in again. Obviously, the most intelligent thing to do here is to stop and take a break, correct? Do we just spend a little time in real life and process this stuff and think about it? How much time is reasonable, and what is the healthiest relationship to have with exploring psychedelics? Should we put it in its place to take out again occasionally and maintain our control over it, or is the idea of 'control over it' just a bad way of thinking about it where I am conflating it with harmful drugs and the addict/drug relationship? I am 38 years old and never abused drugs--a joint every couple of years, no alcohol besides a glass of wine every few weeks with a pasta dinner. Are there steps to take so it doesn't become habit-forming, or does that make any more sense than not wanting to go crazy on breathing exercises because they could be harmful?
2.) Are there common landmarks to look out for with the different experiences as you go deeper? I have heard language like opening up, being in the room or doorway, breaking through or breakthrough, loss of ego, etc. Are there common universal stages or states people recognize reaching depending upon lower and higher doses?
3.) At higher doses of these different drugs, or during deeper trips, I should say, will I be able to remember less and bring less back? Is the balance trying to go as deeply as one can but not so deep that nothing comes back? What are the 'rules' of this wonderful goddamned puzzle!?!?!
4.) I understand there is no 'wrong' way to use these drugs. Some for recreation or pleasure, some for therapy, some for enhancement or with relationships. My curiosities are definitely turned towards pure exploration and paying attention to moving around in this altered intelligence. Are these people the ones who identify with the term psychonaut?
5.) Who are the best resources and contributors on here to speak with who could help me understand how to match how I am interested in using the drugs with substances which might fit best? Certainly there must be recognized experienced experts who can help me avoid drugs which are not conducive to what I am interested in and are able to point me in the right direction? As in other posts, I am trying not to violate the "No 'should I take?' threads" policy. I am deciding for myself, but if the group would lend me their experience and advice in order to help me avoid taking any more RCs than necessary by suggesting the group of drugs I should look into, so much the better. Does it make sense that I am not concerned with visuals or euphoria (definitely don't mind it) but more interested in the ones which people report are connected with deep thought, creativity and which people have a high level of recall. Does this description mean anything to you, or bring certain substances more to mind and some which I can probably cross off my list?
Thanks for reading and replying to any of these, or to anything else you might think to say to me or share. Trying to be responsible and safe and have a healthy relationship and respect for these materials, as well as being psychologically prepared and informed about as much as possible. I certainly have a lot of respect for the power of these things and how they must be approached, so what I say shouldn't be taken as some sort of foolish or careless immature attitude, but I feel like a kid who just discovered a whole new set of organs (or a whole new use for them anyhow) at puberty. It is at once exciting and mysterious.
I have taken 4 trips in the last couple of weeks, and for the first time been able to get a bit of a look at the possibilities of psychedelic exploration, therapy, etc. Suffice it to say; I am fascinated and intrigued beyond words about what can be 'brought back'.
I have been chewing through as much information as I can muster about 'psychic' exploration. As most of you likely already have come to realize, it is possible to not only access, but to navigate and explore previously inaccessible levels of consciousness and brain states! I feel almost exactly the same way I did when I began scuba diving and interacting with alien ecosystems! This truly is a pioneering frontier there is no way to have imagined before having touched it.
So here I am, like a wide-eyed baby who has just taken the first steps into a larger world. The next reasonable step is to ask lots of questions of experienced trailblazers.
1.) So my mind has been blown, my enthusiasm level is at a maximum. Can't wait to go diving in again. Obviously, the most intelligent thing to do here is to stop and take a break, correct? Do we just spend a little time in real life and process this stuff and think about it? How much time is reasonable, and what is the healthiest relationship to have with exploring psychedelics? Should we put it in its place to take out again occasionally and maintain our control over it, or is the idea of 'control over it' just a bad way of thinking about it where I am conflating it with harmful drugs and the addict/drug relationship? I am 38 years old and never abused drugs--a joint every couple of years, no alcohol besides a glass of wine every few weeks with a pasta dinner. Are there steps to take so it doesn't become habit-forming, or does that make any more sense than not wanting to go crazy on breathing exercises because they could be harmful?
2.) Are there common landmarks to look out for with the different experiences as you go deeper? I have heard language like opening up, being in the room or doorway, breaking through or breakthrough, loss of ego, etc. Are there common universal stages or states people recognize reaching depending upon lower and higher doses?
3.) At higher doses of these different drugs, or during deeper trips, I should say, will I be able to remember less and bring less back? Is the balance trying to go as deeply as one can but not so deep that nothing comes back? What are the 'rules' of this wonderful goddamned puzzle!?!?!
4.) I understand there is no 'wrong' way to use these drugs. Some for recreation or pleasure, some for therapy, some for enhancement or with relationships. My curiosities are definitely turned towards pure exploration and paying attention to moving around in this altered intelligence. Are these people the ones who identify with the term psychonaut?
5.) Who are the best resources and contributors on here to speak with who could help me understand how to match how I am interested in using the drugs with substances which might fit best? Certainly there must be recognized experienced experts who can help me avoid drugs which are not conducive to what I am interested in and are able to point me in the right direction? As in other posts, I am trying not to violate the "No 'should I take?' threads" policy. I am deciding for myself, but if the group would lend me their experience and advice in order to help me avoid taking any more RCs than necessary by suggesting the group of drugs I should look into, so much the better. Does it make sense that I am not concerned with visuals or euphoria (definitely don't mind it) but more interested in the ones which people report are connected with deep thought, creativity and which people have a high level of recall. Does this description mean anything to you, or bring certain substances more to mind and some which I can probably cross off my list?
Thanks for reading and replying to any of these, or to anything else you might think to say to me or share. Trying to be responsible and safe and have a healthy relationship and respect for these materials, as well as being psychologically prepared and informed about as much as possible. I certainly have a lot of respect for the power of these things and how they must be approached, so what I say shouldn't be taken as some sort of foolish or careless immature attitude, but I feel like a kid who just discovered a whole new set of organs (or a whole new use for them anyhow) at puberty. It is at once exciting and mysterious.
