PheniFiend
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I'm a 34yo male who is no stranger to heavy drug use. I've been addicted to morphine, meth, xanax, valium, alcohol and Hydrocodon, to the point of horrible withdrawals, many times.
2 1/2 years ago I quit doing drugs altogether, until about 3 1/2 months ago when I found phenibut. Now my habit is around 7 to 12 grams a day. I have been using phenibut daily for all that time, starting with 2-3 gram doses and gradually increasing to where I am now.
My whole life I have dealt with depression with psychotic expression, PTSD, insomnia, anxiety and ADD. I've been prescribed many sleep aids and anti anxiety meds and SSRIs... blah blah blah. Anyway, after all the magical things I read about the social and mood lifting effects of phenibut, I had to try it.
At first it was everythi g I hoped for and more. I got out of a 2 month long lethargy and depression, I got a promotion at work, picked up a prominent service position in my community, and was even sought out by my ex girlfriend, who I am with now and have been for 2 months. By all accounts something had changed about me, I had made a real turnaround. Only I knew that without phenibut none of it would be possible.
Obviously, I had foolishly skimmed over the horror stories of dependence and withdrawal. I wondered, could this be sustainable? In short:
NO! 3 weeks ago I began to have horrible digestive problems. Guts constantly churning, nausea, loose or watery stools, going to the restroom 8 to 10 times a day. In the morning before I dose myself I am filled with dread and depression at the day, with a headache and a fatigued body. Even when I am peaking from my dose I still feel ill. Strange electrical sensations throughout my body, a knocking sound tgat repeats in my head... for a while i kept asking people "do you hear someone knocking?" Until i realized it was auditory hallucinations. I also have frequent headaches and dark urine.
Despite the high doses my anxiety has returned worse than it has been in years. I am also very irritable. I wear a scowl on my face almost constantly from the discomfort. This is horrible. I have to quit but I'm not sure how. And if the effects are this bad now, hoe am I going to get through this without exposing myself and ruining my life?
NOONE in my life knows I have this habit, and if I tell anyone I would be homeless tomorrow with nowhere to go. With my history of mental illness, I am SO AFRAID to go through this. I am deathly afraid of going into drug induced psychosis again. I need to somehow get off this stuff without anyone knowing I'm doing it.
I know I'm being longwinded, but I'm not sure what to say. It seems there are very few detailed reports of getting off phenibut. Any help would be greatly appreciated. Honestly, just some moral support would be excellent right now.
2 1/2 years ago I quit doing drugs altogether, until about 3 1/2 months ago when I found phenibut. Now my habit is around 7 to 12 grams a day. I have been using phenibut daily for all that time, starting with 2-3 gram doses and gradually increasing to where I am now.
My whole life I have dealt with depression with psychotic expression, PTSD, insomnia, anxiety and ADD. I've been prescribed many sleep aids and anti anxiety meds and SSRIs... blah blah blah. Anyway, after all the magical things I read about the social and mood lifting effects of phenibut, I had to try it.
At first it was everythi g I hoped for and more. I got out of a 2 month long lethargy and depression, I got a promotion at work, picked up a prominent service position in my community, and was even sought out by my ex girlfriend, who I am with now and have been for 2 months. By all accounts something had changed about me, I had made a real turnaround. Only I knew that without phenibut none of it would be possible.
Obviously, I had foolishly skimmed over the horror stories of dependence and withdrawal. I wondered, could this be sustainable? In short:
NO! 3 weeks ago I began to have horrible digestive problems. Guts constantly churning, nausea, loose or watery stools, going to the restroom 8 to 10 times a day. In the morning before I dose myself I am filled with dread and depression at the day, with a headache and a fatigued body. Even when I am peaking from my dose I still feel ill. Strange electrical sensations throughout my body, a knocking sound tgat repeats in my head... for a while i kept asking people "do you hear someone knocking?" Until i realized it was auditory hallucinations. I also have frequent headaches and dark urine.
Despite the high doses my anxiety has returned worse than it has been in years. I am also very irritable. I wear a scowl on my face almost constantly from the discomfort. This is horrible. I have to quit but I'm not sure how. And if the effects are this bad now, hoe am I going to get through this without exposing myself and ruining my life?
NOONE in my life knows I have this habit, and if I tell anyone I would be homeless tomorrow with nowhere to go. With my history of mental illness, I am SO AFRAID to go through this. I am deathly afraid of going into drug induced psychosis again. I need to somehow get off this stuff without anyone knowing I'm doing it.
I know I'm being longwinded, but I'm not sure what to say. It seems there are very few detailed reports of getting off phenibut. Any help would be greatly appreciated. Honestly, just some moral support would be excellent right now.
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