Pedro

[Raz]

Hi Bluelight peeps, long time no see! I haven't really been in the mindset to write anything more substantial than my dorky Legion of Superheroes fanfiction for ages now, but last year a friend of mine died and it kinda fucked me up and inspired me to write something for him....and I kind of want to have it somewhere more permanent than a notebook in my cupboard so I'm posting here - I am gonna try and start writing some more again so I will probably be inflicting it on you guys here moving forward

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that time we first met
I never boasted about the details
because I think sex doesn't have to mean something
but that doesn't mean that it can't
and I share every part of my life
but I never really shared you
I never shared the things you told me
the band recommendations I can no longer hear
(but one day I will)
the lack of self-consciousness you gave me
to be able to discuss
comics
hip hop
drugs
queerness
you used to message me when you were stoned
and I messaged you when I was drunk
enjoying the connection
in a way we never got to
in the gay world
or the straight world
it was our world
thousands of miles
comedowns and hangovers
apart
and I remember you took me
to see the graffiti in Vegas
because you knew I would love it
and the time wasn't right for us
it was never right
but you were happy
and I was happy that you were happy
and I was happy that I got to see you
one more time.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

That was a really beautiful piece and I can see you feel grief for your friend's passing. That took a lot of heart to write that.

 

[Raz]

Thanks! It affected me a lot more than I expected...pesky feelings