Prozac and Vraylar.
My OCD regarding me being homosexual and going to hell used to be extremely bad. It has only recently started back up again. I do think a therapist would help but in any case I'm not in the position to even be able to get to a therapist. Seeing as how the covid locked the local community health center down. So no in person therapy. Honesty I think I was just looking for assurance that I'm not going to hell. All of my obsessions cause me to do mental checks about if they are real or not.
I'd just like to point out that the majority of religious belief systems humanity has come up with did not include a concept of hell.
As for you being gay, you obviously internalised some religious prejudice / condemnation for being so. I do not know if you are aware, but homosexuality isn't exclusive to humans. It occurs in the animal kingdom and has been observed in over 300 species. Now religious types like to always point to nonhuman animals as supposedly showing how God had 'intended' for his creatures to behave. 'Animals don't do this!, they live according to God' s will ; this shows that homosexuality is unnatural and sinful '.
Well they got that one wrong. Nothing can be unnatural that occurs in nature. And animals have no concept of morality or God's will, so they cannot sin. If God created nature then it doesn't look like he minds the odd male getting it on with another male. Unless of course someone wants to tell me the devil goes around corrupting the souls of rams (for some reason domestic sheep have the statistically highest documented rate of homosexuality), but then according to those same Christians animals don't even HAVE any soul to corrupt.
Also that passage in the bible that refers to how 'a man should not lie with the man as with a woman, it is an abomination unto the Lord' - well have a look at Deuteronomy and all the OTHER entirely trivial things that are said to be unacceptable in God's eyes. It includes eating shellfish, getting tattoos and wearing mixed fabrics. Show me one single committed Christian who observes that, or even knows about it.
As for the other famous verse about Sodom and Gomorrah, same-sex intercourse is only ONE of the behaviours mentioned. The inhabitants of those towns are being condemned for a whole raft of things showing their general 'sinfulness' and lack of obedience to God, but everybody fixates on this.
It is also clear that homosexuality isn't a choice. So would God make you that way just so you can hate yourself? Or just so you can deny yourself love and intimacy? Does it make sense to be condemned to hell for something you cannot help anymore than the colour of your hair -?
"Wherever there is love, there can be no wrong , and the gods are pleased."
I don't know where we go when we die, but I'm 100% certain you're not going to hell. I've had similar obsessive thoughts and as you're already recognising them as such, remind yourself of the fact everytime you get them. It's your brain having a glitch ; they will pass, as distressing as they are right now.
