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Darvocet Percocet ultracet fioricet
When those I could not glean
My go to was dephinhydramine
Mix in tequila whiskey or rum
Whatever it takes to get me numb
Desensitize me and let me succumb
To the painless feeling of nothingness
My inner demons made me feel like a mess
Felt like I was worthless or even less
Don't know why I know I'm good inside
My insecurity and anxiety I tried to hide
To everyone I said I'm fine to protect my pride
But I lied
Won't confide
Slippery slope slide
I did ride
And I cried
Wished I died
Now that I'm completely inebriated
Don't care if my uniqueness is appreciated
And from my doubts I'm now liberated
Standing on the back steps feeling sated
Liquor and chemicals together mated
Snow falling all around it's death already fated
Unaware of how cold it is out there
Looking out into the night with a blank stare
I declare I don't dare to care to be aware
Of my misery real or otherwise
And until tomorrow when I'm forced to rise
And put on my brave and happy guise
I crawl into bed with my head spinning
Not listening
To my sickening
Misery thinning
And beginning
To start grinning
Numbness winning
Now I say goodnight
Till morning light
Wake up and fight
My demon's plight
Till again at night
Liquor and drugs rewrite
And reality takes flight
Darvocet Percocet ultracet fioricet
When those I could not glean
My go to was dephinhydramine
Mix in tequila whiskey or rum
Whatever it takes to get me numb
Desensitize me and let me succumb
To the painless feeling of nothingness
My inner demons made me feel like a mess
Felt like I was worthless or even less
Don't know why I know I'm good inside
My insecurity and anxiety I tried to hide
To everyone I said I'm fine to protect my pride
But I lied
Won't confide
Slippery slope slide
I did ride
And I cried
Wished I died
Now that I'm completely inebriated
Don't care if my uniqueness is appreciated
And from my doubts I'm now liberated
Standing on the back steps feeling sated
Liquor and chemicals together mated
Snow falling all around it's death already fated
Unaware of how cold it is out there
Looking out into the night with a blank stare
I declare I don't dare to care to be aware
Of my misery real or otherwise
And until tomorrow when I'm forced to rise
And put on my brave and happy guise
I crawl into bed with my head spinning
Not listening
To my sickening
Misery thinning
And beginning
To start grinning
Numbness winning
Now I say goodnight
Till morning light
Wake up and fight
My demon's plight
Till again at night
Liquor and drugs rewrite
And reality takes flight
