Okay so i'm sick to death of people always using purity and SSRIs as excuses for not feeling MDMA. I have consumed pure crystal MDMA on numerous occasions (self-tested with reagents kit), I have never been on any SSRIs or MAOIs. Yet I get minimal, if anything, paradoxical MDMA effects. Dosage isn't the issue, as i've played around between 50mg and 250mg, always with similar results, just less / more intense.
I never feel the 'come-up', i'm just suddenly high. I feel very light, and my pupils dilate like hell. I also need to urinate extremely frequently. Colours will seem richer. As you can see, sounds like MDMA so far right? I get very stimulated, but not in the sense everybody talks about. My sense of touch feels the same, I get shaky and tingly, however this never feels pleasant at all. Also, I don't actually feel like doing anything on MDMA. I just want to sit there. I do not want to talk, and in social situations if anything i've felt more inhibited than usual, and very anxious / paranoid. I feel so aware it's almost as if i'm not aware at all. Very hard to put into words. I feel NO euphoria or empathogenic effects. I'm putting this down to severe depression and low serotonin levels. Any thoughts or anybody else with similar experiences?
I never feel the 'come-up', i'm just suddenly high. I feel very light, and my pupils dilate like hell. I also need to urinate extremely frequently. Colours will seem richer. As you can see, sounds like MDMA so far right? I get very stimulated, but not in the sense everybody talks about. My sense of touch feels the same, I get shaky and tingly, however this never feels pleasant at all. Also, I don't actually feel like doing anything on MDMA. I just want to sit there. I do not want to talk, and in social situations if anything i've felt more inhibited than usual, and very anxious / paranoid. I feel so aware it's almost as if i'm not aware at all. Very hard to put into words. I feel NO euphoria or empathogenic effects. I'm putting this down to severe depression and low serotonin levels. Any thoughts or anybody else with similar experiences?
