It’s very normal for psychiatrists to cycle new patients through several different anti-psychotics/anti-depressants/mood regulators and different combinations of them until they find the ideal solution. The one that minimises the psychiatric symptoms balanced against the most tolerable plaide effects.
In a way your question “do you feel yourself” does not make sense. Myself is pretty batshit crazy with regular bouts of mania. During the mania I feel fucking fantastic and have energy to burn - but there is usually pretty serious job/family/relationship damage from these episodes.
I’m not normal - by a long shot - and I took these meds to dial my outrageous self to something close ‘on average socially acceptable’ so I could hold down a good job and have a good relationship.
It took probably 2 years in total (with an unmedicated break of a few years in ths middle) for me to trial half a dozen or more psych drug combinations before I found the ideal one: Abilify + Dex (with access to low-dose seroquel and valium a few times a month if I felt I was getting overwhelmed or hyper and couldn’t sleep).
This combination let me work in a mentally demanding job and I also had the best and most loving relationship of my life,
What I learned though, is that because of the neuroplastic changes these kind of drugs make in your brain, they can potentially put your mental illness into remission after you’ve taken them for at least a year. It depends on the individual, but I believe that I could possibly have stopped the Abilify after a year when it had probably had a permanent effect.