*long post, but please read*
So I bought what I thought was "25i" from a friend. Upon hours of research of this drug I decided I would take it. Reading that it's more of a body experience than spiritual and the visuals are different than actually LSD I was expecting just a crazy body high with good energy and crazy visuals that would make me happy.
* to add in - this is my first time ever experimenting with drugs like this *
So I took it like they said to. Put it in my upper lip for about and half hour and boy did it hit me quick. (also no metallic taste, yet my gum did go num.) so it had me thinking "what the hell did I just take?" And boy was I about to find out.
Colors seemed a lot brighter and beautiful and my awareness was through the roof with just about a half hour to and hour on this trip. I had so much energy and music sounded nice. My thoughts were going crazy. From one thought to another and to another and so on. About 2 hours into this I realize that everything is just going downhill. I'm starting to hear shit that wasn't there and actually having hallucinations. Ex - fan was working without being plugged in. Sudden power outage in my room when my actual power would stay on. When I was outside everything seemed connected and I didn't know why but in the moment I just knew what was what and what I was. The universe was so beautiful. This went on for hours and at my peak it hit me like a bitch. Paradoxes, crazy thoughts, sensations in my body, visuals. (Thought demons were ripping skin off my back in the shower) . I lost touch with reality. What I thought I knew didn't make sense anymore and what I was thinking of (which were insane at the time) made so much sense to me. So much emotion was going through me. It felt as if everything I knew was ripped away and given back so I could experience it with my own actual thoughts - no judgement, boundaries, separation. My perspective changed on everything, yet I was literally going insane with never ending thoughts and loops. I actually convinced myself I was insane and was thinking of ideas that could help get through life without anyone knowing I was insane yet those thoughts seemed more insane than the previous.
To sum it up (sorry for such the long post) I was deprived of what I thought I knew and experienced everything through a different perspective even though I completely lost my mind. Now after the trip I have a different perspective on everything! It's beautiful, yet I can't describe it to someone who hasn't actually experienced it. So help me. What the hell happened and what should I be doing now that I have these new looks on life ?
So I bought what I thought was "25i" from a friend. Upon hours of research of this drug I decided I would take it. Reading that it's more of a body experience than spiritual and the visuals are different than actually LSD I was expecting just a crazy body high with good energy and crazy visuals that would make me happy.
* to add in - this is my first time ever experimenting with drugs like this *
So I took it like they said to. Put it in my upper lip for about and half hour and boy did it hit me quick. (also no metallic taste, yet my gum did go num.) so it had me thinking "what the hell did I just take?" And boy was I about to find out.
Colors seemed a lot brighter and beautiful and my awareness was through the roof with just about a half hour to and hour on this trip. I had so much energy and music sounded nice. My thoughts were going crazy. From one thought to another and to another and so on. About 2 hours into this I realize that everything is just going downhill. I'm starting to hear shit that wasn't there and actually having hallucinations. Ex - fan was working without being plugged in. Sudden power outage in my room when my actual power would stay on. When I was outside everything seemed connected and I didn't know why but in the moment I just knew what was what and what I was. The universe was so beautiful. This went on for hours and at my peak it hit me like a bitch. Paradoxes, crazy thoughts, sensations in my body, visuals. (Thought demons were ripping skin off my back in the shower) . I lost touch with reality. What I thought I knew didn't make sense anymore and what I was thinking of (which were insane at the time) made so much sense to me. So much emotion was going through me. It felt as if everything I knew was ripped away and given back so I could experience it with my own actual thoughts - no judgement, boundaries, separation. My perspective changed on everything, yet I was literally going insane with never ending thoughts and loops. I actually convinced myself I was insane and was thinking of ideas that could help get through life without anyone knowing I was insane yet those thoughts seemed more insane than the previous.
To sum it up (sorry for such the long post) I was deprived of what I thought I knew and experienced everything through a different perspective even though I completely lost my mind. Now after the trip I have a different perspective on everything! It's beautiful, yet I can't describe it to someone who hasn't actually experienced it. So help me. What the hell happened and what should I be doing now that I have these new looks on life ?
