So my name is Eddy. I smoked meth for tje first time 3 years ago. I now am at a state of mind where im afraid to go outside been in this room for two almost 3 weeks without walking outside. I feel people commenting about my thoughts and ugly perverted stories my mind created while i was high. I hear on tv lr my phone people talking about me. Ive thought i was ganged stalked by people that maybe tje government was doing some experiment on me. That i was able to talk to famous people. It all seemed so real and so stupid at the same time. I tried killing myself few times cuz i felt all bad things were my fault then i turn on a youtube channel and tje lady i swear was indirectly talking about how i wanted to kill myself because i had a life insurance that my family wanted to get the money for so thats why i wanted to kill myself. Also when im watching porn or having intemacy i hear my family talking to me telling me to stop? Does any one go through this and what suggestions does anyone have for me pls im going crazy hear. I hear voices and not only tjat i see people reactions to how bad the stories are about me. Weather its when i had sex with another man to everyone hearing me and seing their discontent or disorientation of the voices in the air talking. Pls i need some advice asap.
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Phobos
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Hey man what do you mean you tried to kill yourself a few times? Was that in the last few days or weeks? How did you attempt?
Do you have any friendly person that would watch over you so you don't try it again while you get better?
How many days since you slept? When did you last eat?
How much have you been smoking per day?
Are you on other drugs as well?
I'm sorry to give you question and not answers but the community's experts need to know a few things about you to help you.
Eddy - I went through something very similar, but it was years after I gave up meth. I don't know if that's what caused my problems or not. Certainly when I was smoking/shooting meth I would go days, even weeks, either without or with very little sleep, and had my fair share of meth induced psychosis.
If you are feeling like you want to kill yourself, or think you might attempt to, call 911 now. Don't disclose that drugs are involved or the police will come come with the ambulance and they will decide they have probable cause to search your house (I speak from experience and have a possession charge as a result). Do whatever you have to do to get help immediately.
If you are still using, the first thing you need to do is stop so you can come down. If you have Valium or something, try taking that, it will help, but don't go crazy with it. Just enough to come down so you can sleep. You should feel much better after you wake up, and you will probably sleep for a day or two straight. If you are still hallucinating and paranoid and stuff when you wake up, go to your er (get a ride or call an ambulance - you do not want to be driving in your condition) and get admitted to the psych unit so they can get you stabilized.
If you are not currently using and experiencing this, go to your er for a psych evaluation. You may need psych meds, at least short term, to get you stabilized.
If you are feeling like you want to kill yourself, or think you might attempt to, call 911 now. Don't disclose that drugs are involved or the police will come come with the ambulance and they will decide they have probable cause to search your house (I speak from experience and have a possession charge as a result). Do whatever you have to do to get help immediately.
If you are still using, the first thing you need to do is stop so you can come down. If you have Valium or something, try taking that, it will help, but don't go crazy with it. Just enough to come down so you can sleep. You should feel much better after you wake up, and you will probably sleep for a day or two straight. If you are still hallucinating and paranoid and stuff when you wake up, go to your er (get a ride or call an ambulance - you do not want to be driving in your condition) and get admitted to the psych unit so they can get you stabilized.
If you are not currently using and experiencing this, go to your er for a psych evaluation. You may need psych meds, at least short term, to get you stabilized.
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Eddy, I started you a new thread so you get more responses. Are you feeling any better today? Let us know how you're doing.
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Sounds like drug induced psychosis ?
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Eddy, I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through this. The bad news is, you don't have a lot of options, but the good news is that these options are fairly clear cut. You need to sleep. Sleep deprivation is of the most psychologically detrimental effects of Methamphetamine usage. You can go "crazy" or psychotic in only a matter of days binging on Meth and not sleeping. You really just need to sleep and not use Methamphetamine for at least a couple of days, but probably for good if you can't refrain from the behavior that has landed you in this spot.
If you go to the hospital, they might sedate you with antipsychotics and/or Benzodiazepines. They might also help you get together with resources that might help prevent you from using drugs in such a destructive manner in the future. I take no moral judgement regarding people and their usage, but some substances really just tear the souls of the users. Crack Cocaine, Methamphetamine and Alcohol are my unholy triad. This is mostly just opinion or anecdotal, but I've seen more people get more destroyed by these substances, more quickly than I have anything else.
If you can't refrain from binging on Methamphetamine, you really shouldn't be using it. This isn't like, "can I go to the bar without getting too drunk" sort of thing. Meth binges are long-lasting and destructive to all facets of your physical, social and psychological being. I'm not saying nobody should ever use these drugs, but you probably should not if you hope to have a normal life.
If you go to the hospital, they might sedate you with antipsychotics and/or Benzodiazepines. They might also help you get together with resources that might help prevent you from using drugs in such a destructive manner in the future. I take no moral judgement regarding people and their usage, but some substances really just tear the souls of the users. Crack Cocaine, Methamphetamine and Alcohol are my unholy triad. This is mostly just opinion or anecdotal, but I've seen more people get more destroyed by these substances, more quickly than I have anything else.
If you can't refrain from binging on Methamphetamine, you really shouldn't be using it. This isn't like, "can I go to the bar without getting too drunk" sort of thing. Meth binges are long-lasting and destructive to all facets of your physical, social and psychological being. I'm not saying nobody should ever use these drugs, but you probably should not if you hope to have a normal life.