I'll try and make this as simple as possible.
I've had derealization - Wikipedia has the best version I can put - "Derealization (DR) is an alteration in the perception or experience of the external world so that it seems strange or unreal. Other symptoms include feeling as though one's environment is lacking in spontaneity, emotional colouring and depth"
Trust me, it's real. It's intense and has been ruining every day of my life for the year I've had it.
I've had sticky mucous dripping down from my sinuses when I smoked what I think was moldy cannabis last summer. This caused pain in my head and these weird derealization feelings, leading to panic attacks. I've never had panic attacks, anxiety, depression, derealization or depersonalization or any other psychological conditions before this. I had derealization at this point on and off. I then smoked Salvia divinorum - and this made it permanent. I remember it crystal clear like it was yesterday - Salvia did it.
I found the site dpselfhelp.com which has a lot of depersonalization sufferers. However when made a poll on there in this thread: http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=2&t=20298
(for those of you not registered the results were 21 feeling feelings of depersonalization and or derealization and only ONE feeling derealization - Me.
And then I found this thread on the same site: http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=1&t=20559
which states "He also refers to a kappa anti-opioid drug which I think may be in the pipeline. It is the kappa part of the antiopioids which are relevant to DP. Neither naxolone not naltrexalone are specific to this constituent and yet naxolone as an injection has caused the DP to remit completely in some of the subjects of an experiment in 2001 which Dr. Sierra describes."
I've also found many sites on google that claim kappa opioid antagonists (opposite to salvinorin A - an agonist) can help psychological conditions and in my case especially (because of salvia) - with no previous mental health conditions - could be true. It's not even mental - it's purely visual cutoff perception with the world. And it's fucking annoying.
I've been to the doctor about the sinus infection and had a CT scan which showed nothing despite spitting out thick, sticky clear mucous out everytime I take a drink/bite to eat. The antibiotics do nothing. I guess it's got to be fungal.
The ONLY time the derealization has left me for 12 hours in the past year is when for the ifrst time I forced myself to sneeze and something pressurized behind my right eye caused me to cry, and the world suddenly became unhazy again. Just like that. At a sneeze. The derealization then creeped up on me the next day. I didn't even try to get rid of it.
Also, when I overdosed on GBL and sent to hospital, they gave me naloxone which made me feel less derealized for the night.
So, I've just told all this to the doctor. I don't particular care about the sinus infection the most - it's the derealization that's really getting me down.
So what do I ask my doctor for (he has never heard of derealization, and I'm sure most of you havn't)? A Kappa opioid antagonist? Naltrexone?
I've had derealization - Wikipedia has the best version I can put - "Derealization (DR) is an alteration in the perception or experience of the external world so that it seems strange or unreal. Other symptoms include feeling as though one's environment is lacking in spontaneity, emotional colouring and depth"
Trust me, it's real. It's intense and has been ruining every day of my life for the year I've had it.
I've had sticky mucous dripping down from my sinuses when I smoked what I think was moldy cannabis last summer. This caused pain in my head and these weird derealization feelings, leading to panic attacks. I've never had panic attacks, anxiety, depression, derealization or depersonalization or any other psychological conditions before this. I had derealization at this point on and off. I then smoked Salvia divinorum - and this made it permanent. I remember it crystal clear like it was yesterday - Salvia did it.
I found the site dpselfhelp.com which has a lot of depersonalization sufferers. However when made a poll on there in this thread: http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=2&t=20298
(for those of you not registered the results were 21 feeling feelings of depersonalization and or derealization and only ONE feeling derealization - Me.
And then I found this thread on the same site: http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=1&t=20559
which states "He also refers to a kappa anti-opioid drug which I think may be in the pipeline. It is the kappa part of the antiopioids which are relevant to DP. Neither naxolone not naltrexalone are specific to this constituent and yet naxolone as an injection has caused the DP to remit completely in some of the subjects of an experiment in 2001 which Dr. Sierra describes."
I've also found many sites on google that claim kappa opioid antagonists (opposite to salvinorin A - an agonist) can help psychological conditions and in my case especially (because of salvia) - with no previous mental health conditions - could be true. It's not even mental - it's purely visual cutoff perception with the world. And it's fucking annoying.
I've been to the doctor about the sinus infection and had a CT scan which showed nothing despite spitting out thick, sticky clear mucous out everytime I take a drink/bite to eat. The antibiotics do nothing. I guess it's got to be fungal.
The ONLY time the derealization has left me for 12 hours in the past year is when for the ifrst time I forced myself to sneeze and something pressurized behind my right eye caused me to cry, and the world suddenly became unhazy again. Just like that. At a sneeze. The derealization then creeped up on me the next day. I didn't even try to get rid of it.
Also, when I overdosed on GBL and sent to hospital, they gave me naloxone which made me feel less derealized for the night.
So, I've just told all this to the doctor. I don't particular care about the sinus infection the most - it's the derealization that's really getting me down.
So what do I ask my doctor for (he has never heard of derealization, and I'm sure most of you havn't)? A Kappa opioid antagonist? Naltrexone?