MPA - depression, anxiety, long term, feedback - user of MPA for 2yrs
I will try to keep this as short as I can. I'm not one of these people who has done a lot of drugs in my time but Ecstacy (yrs ago before adulterated E's came out), LSD, Hash and Speed are my lot. I am over 30 and over weight.
Having a high pressure physical job in the hospitality sector, I needed to find something legal that would pep me up & keep me focused, apart from pro-plus, I didn't know what to use. Did some research and found MPA. Bought some, took a really low amount - 15mg & boom! Wide awake, could see, hear and focus better than ever. No real side effects, apart from lying awake for hours, felt awake in the morning so, wasn't too bothered.
Suffering and being medicated for anxiety, I continue my research just to be sure.
I would go for days or weeks without taking any. Then I would take it for 2/3 days, this continued and 6 months down the line, I'm taking an increased amount to get the same hit I had when I started. No major issues, sleep after taking it was always going to be a problem but I felt good, positive, focussed and stronger in my mind. Coffee gave me heart flutters & palpitations-symptoms I suffered on a grand scale before taking anxiety meds. 2yrs on and I'm still taking it but starting to see some unwelcome effects-headaches,lethargy when I miss a few days-my body is on catch-up mode, if I take too much-I can become irritated too easily and feel as if the anxiety is creeping back in., dizziness and lack of concentration is a regular occurrence. When I'm on it-I'm fine, when it wears off,I notice it, when I've not taken any for a few days, I want take some but know I shouldn't and often take a little just to shake how tired & flat I feel. I am now on half a capsule worth now- I can go through 2 grams a month. Not much for some people but long term, I am noticing the effects. It is mainly excreted through the urine/kidneys. Back pain is common while the kidneys work harder and frequent urination is par for the course. Dry mouth means drinking to quench a bad thirst, sweating and shaking too. Not unpleasant to be honest, too happy at the time, much more content, socially friendly and talkative while using it. It enhances my personality but as with all chems, be careful as we can't see the real effects inside our bodies. Will I stop taking it? Very likely however, not at this point in time. I tried it with MDAi and didn't like it- my anxiety meds played havoc with my serotonin levels and I spent all night with leg jerks & pains, palpitations and a sense of feeling like I was going to have a heart attack- be very careful. You can die from over stimulation of seretonin levels. For me, it's safe if dosage is controlled. I don't take more than 40mg and never re-dose. Mixing it with alcohol worsens the hangover but makes you drink more at the time.
Just remember, everyone is different, everyone has varying tolerances- don't jump in with both feet!