MafiaInsane
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I made a decision of poor decisions based on short term comfort.
Neither of these 2 are to much of an extreme. But I started doing heroin about a month ago, and used it every day for roughly a month.
The last week or so had an extreme obvious fent cut, which I'm not sure how much/ if it would effect anything.
But my first 24 hours when I ran out, I was supposed to find that I didn't feel too badly. I still had symptoms but not as bad as I had thought I would.
But the second day flipped. I slept the first night with ambien. Wake up starting day 2 and it had gotten much worse than it usually would get on average, IMO.
That was pretty shitty. But, thankfully for my long term health and peace of mind, I had no access to any money or any dope to use it on.
All I had always a friend who gave me some meth. About 300mlg. Not much. But my tolerance is small.
The first time I did it, I felt infinitely better. I felt nearly normal. Not perfect, but respectively perfect.
I had only done this as my friend said methamphetamine helps dopesickness, and I was going on s vacation where I wouldn't have access to any either way, and I wanted to have something to ease the shittiness.
Night 3, I take ambien to try to sleep after 48 hours awake. Instead of sleeping, I hallucinated horribly. Heard and saw stupid shit and did stupid shit because of it.
The next day, I leave for the vacation. I used meth early AM, one medium line, hoping it would keep me from passing out too early, and being able to sleep comfortably the next night. I was too tired to do anything at all but lay in bed. Didn't sleep at first.
Smoked some weed, felt a bit better, then it was night time so again, I tried ambien, marijuana, and melatonin. Same thing. Hallucinated horribly.
I slept a tiny bit, on and off, but not much, I can't imagine.
Tonight I will sleep for sure. Stuck in the same cycle, I sniffed a line of meth again, a bit earlier, just to last the day, but now it has run out. So I will sleep soon, if not tonight, then tomorrow on the commute home.
I have a few specific questions. Are the hallucinations most likely just an ambien side effect, from the 3-4 days with little sleep, or could it be both? I don't find lack of sleep to be the main problem, as it started 48 hours in, too early, and it had only happened starting-ending the ambien being in my system.
But even taking it before and not being able to sleep, I never experienced that.
Anybody have any idea?
Also, I realize 300mg for 4 days isn't a lot. I've been on longer binges with more meth, and I was fine after, comedown never made a big deal.
A month may not be considered very long either, but it's king enough to make me sick. It has been almost 5 days, usually IMO, my opiate WD at that level is completely gone by day 6-7. Even at 4-5, it isn't that bad anymore.
But I haven't enjoyed any of this. The meth use isn't fun at all, it just keeps me awake so I don't pass out, since that isn't an option. Is that normal, or does it probably have to die with at least going thru sickness? None of my meth binges lights' have faded this quickly before at all.
I'm not too worried. I have been eating and drinking, my meth comedowns have never been too bad, plus the amount is so small, I feel that it won't make much of an impact besides obviously my sleeping.
All I worry about, is if I should be throwing away ambien and being more patient for regular sleep to avoid hallucination? These are not common shadow people or anything. I'm nearly positive it's caused by ambien, I'm just not sure why now if not before.
Then I worry about the fact it'll be combined with (even mild, almost over) dope sickness.
One or the other isn't fun at all. Both can't be good.
Anybody have any ideas or any input to my questions, or any basic tips?
I know it's been discussed, but I feel like my situation may be slightly different, EG not using ambien.
Thanks in advance, and I apologize for the disorganization.
Neither of these 2 are to much of an extreme. But I started doing heroin about a month ago, and used it every day for roughly a month.
The last week or so had an extreme obvious fent cut, which I'm not sure how much/ if it would effect anything.
But my first 24 hours when I ran out, I was supposed to find that I didn't feel too badly. I still had symptoms but not as bad as I had thought I would.
But the second day flipped. I slept the first night with ambien. Wake up starting day 2 and it had gotten much worse than it usually would get on average, IMO.
That was pretty shitty. But, thankfully for my long term health and peace of mind, I had no access to any money or any dope to use it on.
All I had always a friend who gave me some meth. About 300mlg. Not much. But my tolerance is small.
The first time I did it, I felt infinitely better. I felt nearly normal. Not perfect, but respectively perfect.
I had only done this as my friend said methamphetamine helps dopesickness, and I was going on s vacation where I wouldn't have access to any either way, and I wanted to have something to ease the shittiness.
Night 3, I take ambien to try to sleep after 48 hours awake. Instead of sleeping, I hallucinated horribly. Heard and saw stupid shit and did stupid shit because of it.
The next day, I leave for the vacation. I used meth early AM, one medium line, hoping it would keep me from passing out too early, and being able to sleep comfortably the next night. I was too tired to do anything at all but lay in bed. Didn't sleep at first.
Smoked some weed, felt a bit better, then it was night time so again, I tried ambien, marijuana, and melatonin. Same thing. Hallucinated horribly.
I slept a tiny bit, on and off, but not much, I can't imagine.
Tonight I will sleep for sure. Stuck in the same cycle, I sniffed a line of meth again, a bit earlier, just to last the day, but now it has run out. So I will sleep soon, if not tonight, then tomorrow on the commute home.
I have a few specific questions. Are the hallucinations most likely just an ambien side effect, from the 3-4 days with little sleep, or could it be both? I don't find lack of sleep to be the main problem, as it started 48 hours in, too early, and it had only happened starting-ending the ambien being in my system.
But even taking it before and not being able to sleep, I never experienced that.
Anybody have any idea?
Also, I realize 300mg for 4 days isn't a lot. I've been on longer binges with more meth, and I was fine after, comedown never made a big deal.
A month may not be considered very long either, but it's king enough to make me sick. It has been almost 5 days, usually IMO, my opiate WD at that level is completely gone by day 6-7. Even at 4-5, it isn't that bad anymore.
But I haven't enjoyed any of this. The meth use isn't fun at all, it just keeps me awake so I don't pass out, since that isn't an option. Is that normal, or does it probably have to die with at least going thru sickness? None of my meth binges lights' have faded this quickly before at all.
I'm not too worried. I have been eating and drinking, my meth comedowns have never been too bad, plus the amount is so small, I feel that it won't make much of an impact besides obviously my sleeping.
All I worry about, is if I should be throwing away ambien and being more patient for regular sleep to avoid hallucination? These are not common shadow people or anything. I'm nearly positive it's caused by ambien, I'm just not sure why now if not before.
Then I worry about the fact it'll be combined with (even mild, almost over) dope sickness.
One or the other isn't fun at all. Both can't be good.
Anybody have any ideas or any input to my questions, or any basic tips?
I know it's been discussed, but I feel like my situation may be slightly different, EG not using ambien.
Thanks in advance, and I apologize for the disorganization.
