Hello everyone . So I decided to go to EDC which is a rave festival in Vegas for those who don't know. I went with a bunch of friends And my girlfriend. And honestly I was having a such a beautiful time it was one of the greatest experiences I ever had. That is until the last day on Sunday June 19th literally 30 minutes before it ended around 4 am. Last day I decided to try ecstacy . (Yes I accept I should've never tried drugs to begin with and I could say I'm young and made a mistake but still I feel guilty for taking it) and basically it never hit. Two hours later I took the other half it didn't hit either. I just kept sweating beyond control. So whatever kept going with the flow and later tried 1/4th of a friends pill and that did hit and felt the small high for a while. Fast forward a bit later the effect wore off. And a bit later I kept feeling cold. And stopped sweating. My body was icy cold too. And at one point I kinda got dazed and then I took a step forward and my vision started going tunnel vision, I couldn't breathe right , my heart was racing like crazy. My legs were wobbly. I knew something was wrong so I grabbed my girl and told her lets go to their infirmary . I kinda calmed down half way there luckily it was really nearby. But then I got it again so I went in they checked me my heart rate was 170 while sitting down. They transferred me to their main infirmary and I calmed down a bit on my way there but there again i started feeling weird again and they laid me down quick and connected me to IV. After a while I felt way better just really drained. After that I found out the pill I never felt had meth in it which was what made me sweat so much . I just don't know if I was overdosing or getting heat exhaustion/heat stroke. I wish I knew honestly . Either way it was horrible it scarred me. The meth comedown was a week and a half and scarred me too. I felt great after the comedown for two days but then I developed sinusitis . So i felt sick and my anxiety came back. Then had a 5 week headache. And depression came with that. So it was a rough couple of months now I'm here in month 3 slowly getting better but I get random bouts of daily lightheaded ness and feeling like everything around me is unreal in a way like I don't recognize things around me at times. Especially this past week I went to a concert at Saturday . I had been feeling 80% better by that time with my anxiety and all that . But out of nowhere while in line I got extremely light headed. And everything around me seemed so weird . I still feel that way . I use to get it before which I found out was depersonalization/derealization . But my question is now . Is it still that or could it be early signs of psychosis ? Even tho the last 4 weeks I had been feeling waaaay better not 100% but better, now I don't feel good again. I haven't had an anxiety attacks in 6 weeks. But I get a little anxious but mostly cause the lightheadness and unreality feeling. I get scared maybe the meth did something to my head and I'm stuck like this now, or maybe if I was having a heat stroke it did damage to my brain and mental state. Or that I'm entering psychosis because of the drug. It was a one time use but still idk I keep thinking about that . Even tho lately I had been so positive and keeping active . This sudden lightheaded ness brought me down. I've even called off my job and stopped being active these past 5 days. I hate it honestly. Maybe it's just my anxiety but then I always have that doubt, maybe it isn't ? I'm pretty sure I don't have no heart disease, no tumor, like typical healthy anxiety. More towards my mental state and hopefully I didn't damage anythjng . :/ it was my mistake what I chose. I wish I could go back and change things because I don't feel the same act the same and have missed out on so much and feel guilty I feel like I can't be the boyfriend I use to be or son. And it sucks. I'm seeing a therapist right now and no medication. Just in case anyone asks. Sorry for the long post just felt like letting it out.
*btw* we found out the pill was a bad pill because another friend was given the same pool and had a meth comedown too and he knew since it happened to before and they tested the third pool they had and also looked it up at pill reports.
*btw* we found out the pill was a bad pill because another friend was given the same pool and had a meth comedown too and he knew since it happened to before and they tested the third pool they had and also looked it up at pill reports.
