Hi... I have decided to try ambien for the first time and i want to make sure that i take a safe dosage. I took 30mg of hydrocodone 5 hours ago and just snorted 30 mgs of focalin+20mgs adderall ir, both of which i had cooked and converted to freebase form, and took 120mgs of adderall xr 14 hours ago... I am a regular user of stimulants(100mgs per day at minimum), but they are not cutting it... My girlfriend killed herself last night and i cannot deal with reality... I need to escape or i will freak the fuck out and probably end up hurting/killing myself or others because i blackout when i have strong emotions and ,no matter how i feel, it eventually turns to anger and i end up expressing that anger using violence against myself and the people around me, so i ask the people of bluelight... How much ambien shall i consume on this cursed day?
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Seriously if you think you are going to hurt yourself to go a medical center emergency psych ward. None of my business to speak of your loss, but adding another to it will be worse. Please don't numb yourself sometimes we need to cry before we can laugh because rather than understanding and clarity as state of mind anger and confusion exist. If the emotion is too much to take on yourself please go to a emergency psych ward for medical evaluation. You'll have a place to cry if that doesn't work they will have medication and people there who remember are just people and could easily be in your spot without you knowing it as you are to the world bottling it inside trying to forget as if you have the energy of a black hole.
What you are going through is unimaginable and no loss can compare, but there are many who care. Please if anything just call a local suicide hotline anonymously. Why not? Do any of the previous answers really outweigh what could be gained? Never give up hope as for all that lies down that road is sadness, despair, and primal anger.
What you are going through is unimaginable and no loss can compare, but there are many who care. Please if anything just call a local suicide hotline anonymously. Why not? Do any of the previous answers really outweigh what could be gained? Never give up hope as for all that lies down that road is sadness, despair, and primal anger.
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Sorry for your loss.
I know this isn't you were hoping for but its the truth. If you have a fear of inflicting violence upon yourself or others already, Ambien is the last thing you need. If you take Ambien while feeling like this you are very likely to act upon them while blacked out. I can't begin to imagine how badly you are feeling or how desperate you are for relief but trust me Ambien isn't the right way. If you have to go get emergency psychiatric help or you can call one of the mental health crisis hotlines.
I know this isn't you were hoping for but its the truth. If you have a fear of inflicting violence upon yourself or others already, Ambien is the last thing you need. If you take Ambien while feeling like this you are very likely to act upon them while blacked out. I can't begin to imagine how badly you are feeling or how desperate you are for relief but trust me Ambien isn't the right way. If you have to go get emergency psychiatric help or you can call one of the mental health crisis hotlines.