PillsAndKills
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 6, 2016
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So I used to be a regular on the recovery thread from the start of 2016 for some months after suffering the old 'LTC' after a heavier than advisable binge on NYE. My overall use was short, with me having rolled on 6 separate occasions in total beginning in October 2015 through to NYE which was the last time I rolled. Long story short, a few days after I suffered a cocktail of anxiety symptoms including panic attacks, DP/DR, the lot. A year on and I feel much better with only occasional bouts of anxiety and DP/DR. The only remaining issue I seem to have is that of my memory or organisation of memory.
I struggle to remember in what order I did things in the last week and sometimes can forget what I did a few days ago and need a cue in order to remember. Sometimes concentration can be a problem too. Could this be drug-related or anxiety-related?
I should mention that the 'MDMA' I took on all 6 occasions was supplied by a trusted friend and I have therefore no way of knowing whether or not I was taking pure MDMA or even MDMA at all. Based on my rolls (typical MDMA effects, loved talking to strangers etc.) and drug reports of my area from 2016 I can say it was likely I did take MDMA, but I've left the question open to the suggestion of other drugs effects.
I also have no intention of bad-mouthing this drug and scaring other users. I was irresponsible in the way I went about taking this drug and I wish I had stumbled across bluelight earlier and taken on board the harm reduction points.
I struggle to remember in what order I did things in the last week and sometimes can forget what I did a few days ago and need a cue in order to remember. Sometimes concentration can be a problem too. Could this be drug-related or anxiety-related?
I should mention that the 'MDMA' I took on all 6 occasions was supplied by a trusted friend and I have therefore no way of knowing whether or not I was taking pure MDMA or even MDMA at all. Based on my rolls (typical MDMA effects, loved talking to strangers etc.) and drug reports of my area from 2016 I can say it was likely I did take MDMA, but I've left the question open to the suggestion of other drugs effects.
I also have no intention of bad-mouthing this drug and scaring other users. I was irresponsible in the way I went about taking this drug and I wish I had stumbled across bluelight earlier and taken on board the harm reduction points.