Hi All,
Even though I've read trough tons of very useful posts by experienced users on here, I've joined only recently and this is my first post. Sucks that I have to start with something negative
I use psychedelics very rarely and only for self-exploration. I had my first meditation on MDMA experience about two months ago and it was a great experience, except for the extreme jaw clenching during the roll and muscle tension afterwards (I didn't take the right type of magnesium that time plus I think the dose was too big). A couple of days later I started taking 5-HTP to help restore serotonin and stayed on it cause together with the elemental magnesium it gave me such a good sleep, as well as good mood and energy overall. Took 100mg 5-HTP before bedtime every night together with 350mg elemental magnesium.
The first time I took about 100mg MDMA, and since I thought it was too big a dose for meditation, the second time I took only a bit more than half of that - around 60mg or so of the same stuff. This was 7 weeks after the first experience.
I took the MDMA in the afternoon and about 15-16 hours passed since the last 5-HTP. I took 500mg elemental magnesium 2 hours prior the roll and that completely eliminated the muscle tension and jaw clenching. Even though this time I took a much smaller dose of MDMA, I was completely taken aback by how much high the high still was. WOW! I had an eye mask on but felt like very bright lights beaming in my face. All went good for about an hour but at one point my heart suddenly started to race so fast in an accelerating rate that it made me alarmed and I had to jump up. I started sweating like nuts. I drank water and took more magnesium (it lowers my blood pressure) and took electrolytes. My heart rate slowed down and I started shivering, my muscles in both arms jerking for two seconds. This whole episode lasted about 10-15 minutes and after this everything calmed down. After a while I could even go back to meditation, even though the loved-up feeling wasn't there anymore.
Now I realize it was a stupid thing to do, but two days after this experience I started taking 5-HTP again. Did it for 3 days by the time I realized it's giving me anxiety and even very mild hallucinations. I stopped taking it and anxiety improved. Decided to completely stay away from it, at least for the foreseeable future. Then I got vitamin B complex that had active ginseng in it. Big mistake! I did not realize ginseng had serotonergic properties, only after taking it. DAMN! Had palpitations the same night I took it but slept ok. Following night, however, I woke up to racing heartbeat and sweating again (this was 9 days after the MDMA). This time I didn't have the MDMA's anxiety-relieving effects so I even panicked. Drank lots of water, tried to cool my body, but heart rate was up to 138 (resting 70) and didn't want to go down fast. Took 750mg Xanax right when it started which after 15-20 minutes kicked in, and I began to feel better. Early on I called the ambulance and by the time they got there (45 minutes in) my blood pressure was close to normal again. EKG ok.
Big f@ck up. I'm especially upset cause I can't even start to tell you how invaluable MDMA is for therapy/self exploration, and how many valuable insights I got from these two experiences alone. I was hoping to go on with it, every couple of months this year.
My question to those who experienced something similar how long does it take for the body to get back to normal? Do you have to stop messing with MDMA (or 5-HTP) for good, or just wait long enough time (even if years) to recover and be able to do it again?
I've read posts of ppl taking 5-HTP and MDMA together, or pre-load, post-load without any problem. Everybody reacts differently, and I seem to be kind of sensitive.
Even though I've read trough tons of very useful posts by experienced users on here, I've joined only recently and this is my first post. Sucks that I have to start with something negative
I use psychedelics very rarely and only for self-exploration. I had my first meditation on MDMA experience about two months ago and it was a great experience, except for the extreme jaw clenching during the roll and muscle tension afterwards (I didn't take the right type of magnesium that time plus I think the dose was too big). A couple of days later I started taking 5-HTP to help restore serotonin and stayed on it cause together with the elemental magnesium it gave me such a good sleep, as well as good mood and energy overall. Took 100mg 5-HTP before bedtime every night together with 350mg elemental magnesium.
The first time I took about 100mg MDMA, and since I thought it was too big a dose for meditation, the second time I took only a bit more than half of that - around 60mg or so of the same stuff. This was 7 weeks after the first experience.
I took the MDMA in the afternoon and about 15-16 hours passed since the last 5-HTP. I took 500mg elemental magnesium 2 hours prior the roll and that completely eliminated the muscle tension and jaw clenching. Even though this time I took a much smaller dose of MDMA, I was completely taken aback by how much high the high still was. WOW! I had an eye mask on but felt like very bright lights beaming in my face. All went good for about an hour but at one point my heart suddenly started to race so fast in an accelerating rate that it made me alarmed and I had to jump up. I started sweating like nuts. I drank water and took more magnesium (it lowers my blood pressure) and took electrolytes. My heart rate slowed down and I started shivering, my muscles in both arms jerking for two seconds. This whole episode lasted about 10-15 minutes and after this everything calmed down. After a while I could even go back to meditation, even though the loved-up feeling wasn't there anymore.
Now I realize it was a stupid thing to do, but two days after this experience I started taking 5-HTP again. Did it for 3 days by the time I realized it's giving me anxiety and even very mild hallucinations. I stopped taking it and anxiety improved. Decided to completely stay away from it, at least for the foreseeable future. Then I got vitamin B complex that had active ginseng in it. Big mistake! I did not realize ginseng had serotonergic properties, only after taking it. DAMN! Had palpitations the same night I took it but slept ok. Following night, however, I woke up to racing heartbeat and sweating again (this was 9 days after the MDMA). This time I didn't have the MDMA's anxiety-relieving effects so I even panicked. Drank lots of water, tried to cool my body, but heart rate was up to 138 (resting 70) and didn't want to go down fast. Took 750mg Xanax right when it started which after 15-20 minutes kicked in, and I began to feel better. Early on I called the ambulance and by the time they got there (45 minutes in) my blood pressure was close to normal again. EKG ok.
Big f@ck up. I'm especially upset cause I can't even start to tell you how invaluable MDMA is for therapy/self exploration, and how many valuable insights I got from these two experiences alone. I was hoping to go on with it, every couple of months this year.
My question to those who experienced something similar how long does it take for the body to get back to normal? Do you have to stop messing with MDMA (or 5-HTP) for good, or just wait long enough time (even if years) to recover and be able to do it again?
I've read posts of ppl taking 5-HTP and MDMA together, or pre-load, post-load without any problem. Everybody reacts differently, and I seem to be kind of sensitive.