3nlightenedon3
Greenlighter
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- Mar 31, 2015
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Currently just out of the armed services. been a civilian for about a year now and working a solid job... but before I got out I did a 5 or 6 month binge of every weekend 3-6 hits of some super clean LSD it was 200ug per hit. I have threads from then of some of the crazy trips I went on. Needless to say I have been experiencing some crazy things I feel over conceded to the world around me.... there are times where I can just feel everyone's vibes and there's times where I'm picking up on their thoughts and it could be totally off topic and some how knew they were thinking about that and that's with just coworkers.....
Me and my girl well that's a whole other issue ever since I found out if we both dosed we have a high chance of hearing each other's thoughts... well needless to say now I'm always paranoid I question myself every day we there or not if she can actually hear me or if I'm just losing my freaking mind.
Is there a chance she can still get inside my head? Because there's times we could be watching a show and out of the blue I'll have trance thoughts and next thing ya know first thing out of her mouth is that topic and it's like WTF how how is this possible....
The first 2 months home I couldn't listen to the radio because I thought something was trying to tell me something and it was dark and deep and not in anyway positive.
I'VE had crazy suicidal thoughts that never in my life have I ever had this issue.
I've done bingers of MDMA for a months straight and I was never this dark.
There's time I feel I am still dead from that trip I had on the beach I watched a bullet pass through my head it was insane..... but I can't seem to ground myself back to reality there's just to many coincidences and the fact I'm on the same brain wave as so many others is really driving me mad I feel like I'm loosing control and it's only been getting a worse.
Just looking for some advice.... I've been down some dark roads but I'm trying to piece everything back together not just for myself but my kids.
I feel like everyone is out there and apart of this giant game to torment me and test me and I don't trust a single soul everyone is a threat and yet again I've had other factors besides just lsd to set me down this path of depression and anxiety but the lsd has seemed to really aggrivate it and made it super hard to get myself grounded again..
I already see a shrink but I don't trust em one bit. I have no reason not to either I just don't trust anyone...
Any help is greatly appreciated.
Safe adventures and happy travels.
Me and my girl well that's a whole other issue ever since I found out if we both dosed we have a high chance of hearing each other's thoughts... well needless to say now I'm always paranoid I question myself every day we there or not if she can actually hear me or if I'm just losing my freaking mind.
Is there a chance she can still get inside my head? Because there's times we could be watching a show and out of the blue I'll have trance thoughts and next thing ya know first thing out of her mouth is that topic and it's like WTF how how is this possible....
The first 2 months home I couldn't listen to the radio because I thought something was trying to tell me something and it was dark and deep and not in anyway positive.
I'VE had crazy suicidal thoughts that never in my life have I ever had this issue.
I've done bingers of MDMA for a months straight and I was never this dark.
There's time I feel I am still dead from that trip I had on the beach I watched a bullet pass through my head it was insane..... but I can't seem to ground myself back to reality there's just to many coincidences and the fact I'm on the same brain wave as so many others is really driving me mad I feel like I'm loosing control and it's only been getting a worse.
Just looking for some advice.... I've been down some dark roads but I'm trying to piece everything back together not just for myself but my kids.
I feel like everyone is out there and apart of this giant game to torment me and test me and I don't trust a single soul everyone is a threat and yet again I've had other factors besides just lsd to set me down this path of depression and anxiety but the lsd has seemed to really aggrivate it and made it super hard to get myself grounded again..
I already see a shrink but I don't trust em one bit. I have no reason not to either I just don't trust anyone...
Any help is greatly appreciated.
Safe adventures and happy travels.