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Hi, Please help my guys to fugure out what happens to me couse since september last year I'm paranoic of reading, researching and thinking what specially ruined my life.
In the last 3 years I'v benn of combinations of some antidepression drugs.
2013 - citalopram 3 months
2014 - prozac 2 weeks and cital again (2 months)
2015 - mirtapazine just 5 weeks.
Beetwen those drugs it was allways one year gap of treatment, Always after tapering and disconnectong I become hipomanic, beside this I didn't notes any serious side effeckt exept being so happy and full of energy. Unfortunately I seriously crashed on september last year in the same week I stop cold turkey Mirtazapine and went for party and toked pure MDMA which my freand first time in our life. The problem is I dont know what dose it was exactly.. The crystal it was very tiny, something around 300mg. Now I know it was too much. I didn't notes any huge euphoria, rewire for dance, and any stuff like this.. Just a little bit and problems with sleep after party. In the next 3 weeks I become asexual, emotional zombie withoud motivation and desire for life. In oktober when I suffering the most of insomnia after one terrible night of no sleeping people asked me what hapent to me couse I looked like I lost my soul and my face is withoud expression. What else I have is tinnitus in my ears. Cigaretes and coffe dont works on me that much as before. I wake up many this during night but that improve after 4-5 months. Looks like my metabolism has been change. I cant connecting with other people. Sometimes I look at them like for aliens. I dont have desire to see my family and freands any more. All I doing with auotopilot. I dont care about any thinks. I dont feel shame, fear, presure any more. Just completly numb. Sometimes I getting my old felling but only for one second and after that gone like someone cuting wires response for emotions in my fucked up brain. My arms and legs very easy and often getting numb like poor blood circulations. All the time Im lack of energy and so weak. I stop listing music couse is just annoying for me. The same movies. All what I leasing or watching it seems to me stupid. About sexual side.. I could write seperate topics how many dysfunction I get.. What I concerne the most Is real asexuality.
Well as you see gentelmens is after stupid amators decision of taking something with I didnt know even small clod is so strong toxic and dangerous I become allmost vegetable. Well.. actually I dont know. Is that possible ? Since september I'm paranoid and reading stuff every day on antidepression drugs forums, especially PSSD forums. My side effect are very simillar to PSSD victims. I 'been convince I got PSSD syndrome after quit mirtazapine (I lost lipido during 5 weeks treatment) I spoke with others MDMA users, and they fine even after years of using and biger doses. My freand which rolling with me that night is fine as well. I gone see neurologic this month regarding my condidtions. I done blood test and is perfect.
Am so sorry about my english. Please reply me if so drastic demages are possible ? Shall I notes demages directly after that night ? Because in the first 3 weeks after party I was ok..
In the last 3 years I'v benn of combinations of some antidepression drugs.
2013 - citalopram 3 months
2014 - prozac 2 weeks and cital again (2 months)
2015 - mirtapazine just 5 weeks.
Beetwen those drugs it was allways one year gap of treatment, Always after tapering and disconnectong I become hipomanic, beside this I didn't notes any serious side effeckt exept being so happy and full of energy. Unfortunately I seriously crashed on september last year in the same week I stop cold turkey Mirtazapine and went for party and toked pure MDMA which my freand first time in our life. The problem is I dont know what dose it was exactly.. The crystal it was very tiny, something around 300mg. Now I know it was too much. I didn't notes any huge euphoria, rewire for dance, and any stuff like this.. Just a little bit and problems with sleep after party. In the next 3 weeks I become asexual, emotional zombie withoud motivation and desire for life. In oktober when I suffering the most of insomnia after one terrible night of no sleeping people asked me what hapent to me couse I looked like I lost my soul and my face is withoud expression. What else I have is tinnitus in my ears. Cigaretes and coffe dont works on me that much as before. I wake up many this during night but that improve after 4-5 months. Looks like my metabolism has been change. I cant connecting with other people. Sometimes I look at them like for aliens. I dont have desire to see my family and freands any more. All I doing with auotopilot. I dont care about any thinks. I dont feel shame, fear, presure any more. Just completly numb. Sometimes I getting my old felling but only for one second and after that gone like someone cuting wires response for emotions in my fucked up brain. My arms and legs very easy and often getting numb like poor blood circulations. All the time Im lack of energy and so weak. I stop listing music couse is just annoying for me. The same movies. All what I leasing or watching it seems to me stupid. About sexual side.. I could write seperate topics how many dysfunction I get.. What I concerne the most Is real asexuality.
Well as you see gentelmens is after stupid amators decision of taking something with I didnt know even small clod is so strong toxic and dangerous I become allmost vegetable. Well.. actually I dont know. Is that possible ? Since september I'm paranoid and reading stuff every day on antidepression drugs forums, especially PSSD forums. My side effect are very simillar to PSSD victims. I 'been convince I got PSSD syndrome after quit mirtazapine (I lost lipido during 5 weeks treatment) I spoke with others MDMA users, and they fine even after years of using and biger doses. My freand which rolling with me that night is fine as well. I gone see neurologic this month regarding my condidtions. I done blood test and is perfect.
Am so sorry about my english. Please reply me if so drastic demages are possible ? Shall I notes demages directly after that night ? Because in the first 3 weeks after party I was ok..