OHtoCA614916
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Sep 21, 2014
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- 5
Hello all,
So im 25 years old, and I used prescription opiods for nearly 5 years. I was fresh out of college, got a job doing physical labor to pay the bills, was offered to me, and thats how everything began. It got to the point that i had no limits, and was basically using as much of the drug as i could afford. I bounced from using percocet when i could, to buying suboxone to try to have a half way normal life. I then quit everything cold turkey for 8 months. I slipped up, used, got introduced to heroin, used that for 5 more months and decided to hang up my guns again.
I am now over 13 months clean and sober. I made up my mind I was done. My questions are about my long term effects.
I feel like my cognitive functions are way lower than they used to be. When someone drops a witty lone, it almost always go's over my head immediately, which neverrr ysed to happen.
Im pretty sure i still have depression. I could honestly care less about most things. (Not like when you withdraw, im light years ahead of that). But i know im not where im supposed to be.
I also suffer really bad social anxiety now. I dont like going around random people at all, to the point i dread going to the gas station to get cigs. I feel like im loght years behind all of my peers.
Honestly, i dont think that i like who i am. I operate heavy equipment for a loving now, and wake up at 430 am every day, im good at what i do, and i make good money, but i cant feel proud of myself for anything...
I dont have health insurance or id go talk to someone.
I also have never posted here. I used to come here and lurk when i was withdrawing really hard and needed some support. Im not even sure if this is the correct area, but i really wanted to reach out to some people with insight.
Thank you in advance.
So im 25 years old, and I used prescription opiods for nearly 5 years. I was fresh out of college, got a job doing physical labor to pay the bills, was offered to me, and thats how everything began. It got to the point that i had no limits, and was basically using as much of the drug as i could afford. I bounced from using percocet when i could, to buying suboxone to try to have a half way normal life. I then quit everything cold turkey for 8 months. I slipped up, used, got introduced to heroin, used that for 5 more months and decided to hang up my guns again.
I am now over 13 months clean and sober. I made up my mind I was done. My questions are about my long term effects.
I feel like my cognitive functions are way lower than they used to be. When someone drops a witty lone, it almost always go's over my head immediately, which neverrr ysed to happen.
Im pretty sure i still have depression. I could honestly care less about most things. (Not like when you withdraw, im light years ahead of that). But i know im not where im supposed to be.
I also suffer really bad social anxiety now. I dont like going around random people at all, to the point i dread going to the gas station to get cigs. I feel like im loght years behind all of my peers.
Honestly, i dont think that i like who i am. I operate heavy equipment for a loving now, and wake up at 430 am every day, im good at what i do, and i make good money, but i cant feel proud of myself for anything...
I dont have health insurance or id go talk to someone.
I also have never posted here. I used to come here and lurk when i was withdrawing really hard and needed some support. Im not even sure if this is the correct area, but i really wanted to reach out to some people with insight.
Thank you in advance.
