What are the overall consequences of a rapid 4-week benzo taper on your reward system, neurochemistry, personality, mental and physical health, etc?
My story: I was taking 1-2mg of etizolam for 12 weeks, once nightly for sleep purposes (equivalent to 10-20mg diazepam/Valium), as a stressed software engineering graduate student pursuing an accelerated 1-year program. Suddenly, my domestic benzologue vendor stopped carrying etizolam blotter so I carelessly and ignorantly graduated to the strongest, ultra potent RC hypnotic benzos they had for sleep (1mg flunitrazolam and 1mg clonazolam blotters respectively, both used once nightly, which is equivalent to a whopping 120mg diazepam/Valium). This continued for four weeks, until I realized an intervention was needed before it was too late, or until things progressively got out-of-hand which could have potentially ruined my life. The interdose and day-time withdrawal symptoms were absolutely unbearable - I was seriously contemplating suicide during those four weeks. This means that I was physically dependent on benzos for a total of sixteen weeks, with my latest equivalent tolerance being 120 mg diazepam/Valium.
My rapid taper protocol: I acquired diclazepam powder from a reputable source, prepared a 10 mg/mL solution with food grade propylene glycol (PG) using heat baths and excessive stirring, which was then verified by my local pharmacist to be homogeneous and well-mixed enough for accurate dosing. He really cares about my well-being and wants me to succeed in life, and understands that diclazepam is the ultimate benzo taper method despite being a Schedule IV Substance in Canada. He just wanted to help me to the best of his ability. As a funny aside: one of the top rated reviews for the food grade PG I bought said that it dissolved his diclazepam beautifully.
Important detail: my physician/GP is fully aware of my protocol to taper off successfully and fully condones it (as long as I see him every week so he can check up on me) as an alternative to going to a detox/rehab recovery center which does an ultra-rapid 8 day withdrawal and sends you home with a prescription. This often ends up making things worse in the end. I'm already two weeks into my taper but this is my 4-week taper calendar and dosages for each day. I'm starting at 12 mg diclazepam and ending at 0.1 mg. I'm tapering at a rapid rate of about 15% per day which goes against everything the Ashton Manual and the Canadian Guideline for Safe and Effective Benzodiazepine Tapering say. This also goes against common tapering practices suggested by various online forums/communities such as BenzoBuddies and subreddits like /r/benzorecovery. More slow-tapering guidelines are included here, some even slower than the Ashton Manual. You'll find the The British National Formulary, which is even slower than the Ashton Manual for tapering, and The Current Psychiatry?s Guidelines. Those resources advocate a slow 33-66 month taper based on their protocols and my calculations, which doesn't make much sense to me if I've only been on benzos for a total of 4 months. This would just create further dependency in my opinion, and I need to get off benzos as soon as possible because they are impairing my cognitive ability for my rigorous software engineering Master's program, and noticeably decreasing my performance and strength as an athlete, presumably due to the relaxing effects on the musculoskeletal system.
I will post an update after my taper is completed with the exact details of my protocol and what I took as an adjunct to help and cope with symptoms. I will include my nootropic/supplement/peptide/drug support stack and regimen that helped expedite recovery, minimise withdrawal symptoms/discomfort, and support/enhance daily functioning.
In terms of withdrawal symptoms I've experienced so far, they have been very mild and I'm almost done half my taper. I've been almost fully functional and carrying out my daily routine and responsibilities including going to the gym. The withdrawal symptoms are all present from this comprehensive, alphabetized list but relatively mild to my surprise and delight. I realize that there is a chance that some or all of these withdrawal symptoms may be protracted in nature as seen and explained in Tables 3 & 4 here, even after my taper is completed successfully. It could take months or years for full remission to occur, but this is not the norm since I've only been on for a relatively short amount of time. I expect the symptoms tend to fade away quickly, and peak cognition to come back over time.
The only symptom that's a bit difficult to deal with right now is dysphoria. Tapering ultra rapidly can make you go through excess dysphoria in a short period of time. It's difficult to reverse the "learning" and neurochemical adaptations that occurs from this process. This can potentially break your reward system and GABA/Glutamate/Benzodiazepene receptors. I have no idea regarding the magnitude or the length of how long this would possibly occur as it is merely conjecture and what I've read online from various resources. I don't know of any good literature on this and I'm not knowledgeable enough in this realm which is why I'm posting here.
Going forward, I should definitely avoid benzos due to kindling (sedative?hypnotic withdrawal). I would still like to use them very occasionally either for landing gear or recreationally but only sporadically (etizolam and clonazolam are the only ones I've enjoyed, never tried flualprazolam, and I have no interest in any other benzo/thienologues whether RC or pharma). I already know of sustainable sleep enhancing drugs (both in quality and architecture) that can be taken daily such as mirtazapine and trazodone.
Can anyone verify the validity of the above statement? Also, any insights, critiques, or advice is welcomed. Thank you and happy holidays!
My story: I was taking 1-2mg of etizolam for 12 weeks, once nightly for sleep purposes (equivalent to 10-20mg diazepam/Valium), as a stressed software engineering graduate student pursuing an accelerated 1-year program. Suddenly, my domestic benzologue vendor stopped carrying etizolam blotter so I carelessly and ignorantly graduated to the strongest, ultra potent RC hypnotic benzos they had for sleep (1mg flunitrazolam and 1mg clonazolam blotters respectively, both used once nightly, which is equivalent to a whopping 120mg diazepam/Valium). This continued for four weeks, until I realized an intervention was needed before it was too late, or until things progressively got out-of-hand which could have potentially ruined my life. The interdose and day-time withdrawal symptoms were absolutely unbearable - I was seriously contemplating suicide during those four weeks. This means that I was physically dependent on benzos for a total of sixteen weeks, with my latest equivalent tolerance being 120 mg diazepam/Valium.
My rapid taper protocol: I acquired diclazepam powder from a reputable source, prepared a 10 mg/mL solution with food grade propylene glycol (PG) using heat baths and excessive stirring, which was then verified by my local pharmacist to be homogeneous and well-mixed enough for accurate dosing. He really cares about my well-being and wants me to succeed in life, and understands that diclazepam is the ultimate benzo taper method despite being a Schedule IV Substance in Canada. He just wanted to help me to the best of his ability. As a funny aside: one of the top rated reviews for the food grade PG I bought said that it dissolved his diclazepam beautifully.
Important detail: my physician/GP is fully aware of my protocol to taper off successfully and fully condones it (as long as I see him every week so he can check up on me) as an alternative to going to a detox/rehab recovery center which does an ultra-rapid 8 day withdrawal and sends you home with a prescription. This often ends up making things worse in the end. I'm already two weeks into my taper but this is my 4-week taper calendar and dosages for each day. I'm starting at 12 mg diclazepam and ending at 0.1 mg. I'm tapering at a rapid rate of about 15% per day which goes against everything the Ashton Manual and the Canadian Guideline for Safe and Effective Benzodiazepine Tapering say. This also goes against common tapering practices suggested by various online forums/communities such as BenzoBuddies and subreddits like /r/benzorecovery. More slow-tapering guidelines are included here, some even slower than the Ashton Manual. You'll find the The British National Formulary, which is even slower than the Ashton Manual for tapering, and The Current Psychiatry?s Guidelines. Those resources advocate a slow 33-66 month taper based on their protocols and my calculations, which doesn't make much sense to me if I've only been on benzos for a total of 4 months. This would just create further dependency in my opinion, and I need to get off benzos as soon as possible because they are impairing my cognitive ability for my rigorous software engineering Master's program, and noticeably decreasing my performance and strength as an athlete, presumably due to the relaxing effects on the musculoskeletal system.
I will post an update after my taper is completed with the exact details of my protocol and what I took as an adjunct to help and cope with symptoms. I will include my nootropic/supplement/peptide/drug support stack and regimen that helped expedite recovery, minimise withdrawal symptoms/discomfort, and support/enhance daily functioning.
In terms of withdrawal symptoms I've experienced so far, they have been very mild and I'm almost done half my taper. I've been almost fully functional and carrying out my daily routine and responsibilities including going to the gym. The withdrawal symptoms are all present from this comprehensive, alphabetized list but relatively mild to my surprise and delight. I realize that there is a chance that some or all of these withdrawal symptoms may be protracted in nature as seen and explained in Tables 3 & 4 here, even after my taper is completed successfully. It could take months or years for full remission to occur, but this is not the norm since I've only been on for a relatively short amount of time. I expect the symptoms tend to fade away quickly, and peak cognition to come back over time.
The only symptom that's a bit difficult to deal with right now is dysphoria. Tapering ultra rapidly can make you go through excess dysphoria in a short period of time. It's difficult to reverse the "learning" and neurochemical adaptations that occurs from this process. This can potentially break your reward system and GABA/Glutamate/Benzodiazepene receptors. I have no idea regarding the magnitude or the length of how long this would possibly occur as it is merely conjecture and what I've read online from various resources. I don't know of any good literature on this and I'm not knowledgeable enough in this realm which is why I'm posting here.
Going forward, I should definitely avoid benzos due to kindling (sedative?hypnotic withdrawal). I would still like to use them very occasionally either for landing gear or recreationally but only sporadically (etizolam and clonazolam are the only ones I've enjoyed, never tried flualprazolam, and I have no interest in any other benzo/thienologues whether RC or pharma). I already know of sustainable sleep enhancing drugs (both in quality and architecture) that can be taken daily such as mirtazapine and trazodone.
Can anyone verify the validity of the above statement? Also, any insights, critiques, or advice is welcomed. Thank you and happy holidays!
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