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Mental Health Is this an extreme Anxiety attack

Delish1973

Delish1973

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I had my 3rd episode/attack of what I can only describe as drunken behaviour but without alcohol
I suffer with depression and occasional panic attacks but this something else
I feel euphoria,
Erratic Behaviour
Acting like I’m very drunk
Sweating
I hit my chest and clap my hands occasionally
My heart is pulsating
I am unaware of my surroundings
Apparently Im desperately asking for help
It was my 2nd time that I went into hospital. In order to take my blood I had to be sedated.
I have absolutely no memory of what goes on! These attacks last around 12 hours

At the start of theses attacks I start getting very chatting, leaning over a chair! My partner helped me to bed but I’m u able to keep still

Im desperate to find out why I’m so effected by these attacks! The hospital were at a loss as to why I have these episodes that look very distressing
I wanted to see a specialist in mental health as I know it must be linked. My mental health is terrible, I’m not scared of death now! It’s something I have come to terms with! I’m not functioning anymore! Laying in bed everyday! Not bothering with life at all
I did however find out I was stage 3 kidney disease!
They said this wouldn’t cause my attacks
 
Does not sound like an anxiety attack. Kind of vaguely sounds hypoglycemia associated altered mental status but that would have come up on your blood work.

Could be baclofen/pregabalin mania if you had enough.
 
Ghost fart said:
I ask because i want to try to find a way to help you. I want no one to suffer. Not one bit.

However, i am not a trained medical professional.
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I really am mentally in a bad place! I’ve laid in bed for 2 years!
I have attempted suicide twice now, my last time I was resuscitated 3 times! That was 4 years ago! I’ve self harmed
I can honestly say I’m at peace with leaving this agony behind
If I tell my doctor I’m wanting to end this suffering I will possibly make it worse for me!
I’m crying now! I’ve really had enough! This isn’t a life! My muscle wastage is getting worse!
I truly believe I will never get out of this mood I have! Wanting to do nothing! Just existing
 
negrogesic said:
Does not sound like an anxiety attack. Kind of vaguely sounds hypoglycemia associated altered mental status but that would have come up on your blood work.

Could be baclofen/pregabalin mania if you had enough.
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I took my normal dose! Last year I woken up not knowing who I was! Terrified and screaming! Begging for help! What’s happening to me
 
Delish1973 said:
I really am mentally in a bad place! I’ve laid in bed for 2 years!
I have attempted suicide twice now, my last time I was resuscitated 3 times! That was 4 years ago! I’ve self harmed
I can honestly say I’m at peace with leaving this agony behind
If I tell my doctor I’m wanting to end this suffering I will possibly make it worse for me!
I’m crying now! I’ve really had enough! This isn’t a life! My muscle wastage is getting worse!
I truly believe I will never get out of this mood I have! Wanting to do nothing! Just existing
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Look, if you tell your doctor all these things, i don't think that the doctor is going to make it worse. Sounds pretty bad as it is...

I also think that there IS HOPE left for your life to get better. I just can't figure out a way to help you right now, even though i am really trying here.

And it is perfectly okay to cry. Just cry, and nothing else, for a while sometimes.
 
Ghost fart said:
Look, if you tell your doctor all these things, i don't think that the doctor is going to make it worse. Sounds pretty bad as it is...

I also think that there IS HOPE left for your life to get better. I just can't figure out a way to help you right now, even though i am really trying here.

And it is perfectly okay to cry. Just cry, and nothing else, for a while sometimes.
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Bless you! It’s nice being honest for the first time, I know these bad thoughts are getting worse! Is it really that bad to say “I give up” not to suffer like I’m doing!
 
Delish1973 said:
Bless you! It’s nice being honest for the first time, I know these bad thoughts are getting worse! Is it really that bad to say “I give up” not to suffer like I’m doing!
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You can be completely honest on this forum. Be you. The real you.

It is easier for people here to help you, if you are being honest. So i recommend you keep doing that, it is the right choice to make.
 
negrogesic said:
Does not sound like an anxiety attack. Kind of vaguely sounds hypoglycemia associated altered mental status but that would have come up on your blood work.

Could be baclofen/pregabalin mania if you had enough.
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Just googled Altered state of mind!
if my strange behaviour isn’t caused by this condition then I will be very surprised
Called my doctor today, she’s calling me on Monday to discuss my antidepressants. I really have zero trust in her! I will have a long think about mentioning my suicidal thoughts!
I don’t want to be sectioned because I’m a danger to myself! It’s been a slow process with these thoughts growing inside me! Isn’t it strange that I once felt dread knowing one day there will be no Adele! Just nothing!

I want to say how lovely it is hearing your concern for me! It’s very hard talking like this and causing others to worry!
You have all made a difference more than you all know in helping ! I’m now speaking to my doctor next week!
I need professional help! Thank u again to everyone
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Delish1973 said:
Just googled Altered state of mind!
if my strange behaviour isn’t caused by this condition then I will be very surprised
Called my doctor today, she’s calling me on Monday to discuss my antidepressants. I really have zero trust in her! I will have a long think about mentioning my suicidal thoughts!
I don’t want to be sectioned because I’m a danger to myself! It’s been a slow process with these thoughts growing inside me! Isn’t it strange that I once felt dread knowing one day there will be no Adele! Just nothing!

I want to say how lovely it is hearing your concern for me! It’s very hard talking like this and causing others to worry!
You have all made a difference more than you all know in helping ! I’m now speaking to my doctor next week!
I need professional help! Thank u again to everyone
👩‍⚕️🧟‍♀️

💐🌸🌺🌻🌼🌼💐
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Be completely honest and open with your doctor. Don't hide anything from them, especially suicidal thoughts. THEY ARE NOT GOING TO LOCK YOU UP FOR TALKING ABOUT IT.

If you ever feel like they aren't listening or taking you seriously, they probably aren't, and you need to find a good one.

There are horrible shit doctors... But there are also amazing ones who actually want to help you and care.

If you feel like they don't care about you find a new one!

I hope you can find some peace of mind soon
 

Friday Night Back in Hospital​

I cannot believe I ended up again having another one of those Altered mental state things.
Fares my partner has always been amazing but........... I honestly thing Friday night my condition was made worse by him.
He was shouting at me "I'm fed up of this, what about me, aren't I pissed off that no one gives a shift how I feel. I remember him pushing me, throwing my beta blockers at me demanding it take them. I know I was screaming and begging him not to hurt me.
When we arrived at A&E he started being nice to me by putting his arm around me, I obviously told him out loud to go away.
Tonight we sat down and spoke about his actions. I think truth be known he that he's depressed, we have zero support from family and friends due to relocating here.

Things are getting much worse with me, the doctors were amazed to see me the next day as my normal self. Well spoken, polite, apologetic. I was asked numerous times if I had taken more tablets than I should. I explained I had my medication is delivered daily so would be impossible to exceed the Dose.

This was the first time out of 4 episodes I have see 2 Psychiatrice in hospital, I poured my heart out, made them aware of my suicide thoughts. Wow...... How amazing it was to be told no wonder I feel like I do dealing with my past history.

I will now be seen as an outpatient which is amazing. For the first time in ages I feel there is hope.

Those messages you all left really helped me. You must of felt hopeless when I told you all about wanting to kill myself! I'm sorry for offloading that onto you. None of you realised the difference you made.
Don't forget my doctor is calling me today so I will ask her to review my medication, I feel this Citalopram 40mg daily isn't strong enough. I feel I need something to slow my mind down, help me sleep. I don't like these beta blockers that were prescribed either. I only take when I'm very bad


Lowering my Morphine that enabled me to function, pain free, mental health was brilliant, I looked after myself, put make up on, sex life was amazing, my output in my stoma bag was firm, i lost 800ml output daily not 3000ml like I do now. I was never dyhdrated, never had kidney disease. I'm asking for 40ml daily of oramorph, this will give me back my life!

Can u believe the NHS did this to me!
 
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