happyvalentinerose
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- Aug 25, 2015
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It seems preposterous to me, because even the lifetime junkies still get a rush off meth... so how is it possible that I feel nothing off uppers? Literally no high off of meth or cocaine. Zero. Zip. Nada. Even if it's shit, after doing enough of it, shouldn't I have felt something?
First time trying cocaine I was barred out... I felt zero change but I attributed it to the amount of drugs already in my body (30mg xanax, some seroquil, marijuana, and two hits of acid). I snorted 12-15 "normal" sized lines of it... the people around me were snorting 1-2 of the same stuff and getting high as balls. The second time, I had 2 drinks in my system only. I snorted 2 lines. This was from a different dealer, FYI. Still no effect. Decided coke isn't my drug so I haven't done it since.
First time doing meth... smoked about 1/3g out of the pipe with 2 other junkies. I had sniffed H earlier that night (my first time trying H as well, and it had the desired effect... I DO NOT RECOMMEND TRYING THESE TOGETHER FOR YOUR FIRST TIME). No high or rush from the ice. I just simply didn't fall asleep. Second time I bought 1g and nothing else in my system. Smoked 1/8, zero effect. Smoked another 1/8, some slight anxiety but no high whatsoever. Snorted 1/8, felt the strong kick and burn in my nose, but still nothing. Went to class. My head felt a little disconnected from my body (felt like I was in a fog) but it wasn't pleasurable. Came back 2 hours later and just smoked the rest of it. Increased HR and anxiety. 2-10 hours later my anxiety was horrible, bordering on panic attacks the whole time. Finally had 2 beers and fell asleep about 12 hours after smoking.
A little background info in case it's relevant... I take 2x 30mg instant release adderall per day for legit ADHD. I feel a mild effect, just calm and a little less impulsive with the adderall (even when I was brand new to it, I could barely feel anything. I also take 90mg cymbalta (antidepressant) each morning. I have depression, anxiety, panic disorder, ADHD, and (just to throw this out there), trichillomania. My guess is my lack of effect has something to do with me having a low dopamine level. Low dopamine would explain all the disorders I already have. And the dopamine release from stimulants would only bring me to "baseline" or normal like the adderall does instead of giving me a high.
Would love to know what you think as to why I'm seemingly immune to stimulants??
P.S. Ran all the purity tests I possibly could find on the crystal... Everything checked out.
First time trying cocaine I was barred out... I felt zero change but I attributed it to the amount of drugs already in my body (30mg xanax, some seroquil, marijuana, and two hits of acid). I snorted 12-15 "normal" sized lines of it... the people around me were snorting 1-2 of the same stuff and getting high as balls. The second time, I had 2 drinks in my system only. I snorted 2 lines. This was from a different dealer, FYI. Still no effect. Decided coke isn't my drug so I haven't done it since.
First time doing meth... smoked about 1/3g out of the pipe with 2 other junkies. I had sniffed H earlier that night (my first time trying H as well, and it had the desired effect... I DO NOT RECOMMEND TRYING THESE TOGETHER FOR YOUR FIRST TIME). No high or rush from the ice. I just simply didn't fall asleep. Second time I bought 1g and nothing else in my system. Smoked 1/8, zero effect. Smoked another 1/8, some slight anxiety but no high whatsoever. Snorted 1/8, felt the strong kick and burn in my nose, but still nothing. Went to class. My head felt a little disconnected from my body (felt like I was in a fog) but it wasn't pleasurable. Came back 2 hours later and just smoked the rest of it. Increased HR and anxiety. 2-10 hours later my anxiety was horrible, bordering on panic attacks the whole time. Finally had 2 beers and fell asleep about 12 hours after smoking.
A little background info in case it's relevant... I take 2x 30mg instant release adderall per day for legit ADHD. I feel a mild effect, just calm and a little less impulsive with the adderall (even when I was brand new to it, I could barely feel anything. I also take 90mg cymbalta (antidepressant) each morning. I have depression, anxiety, panic disorder, ADHD, and (just to throw this out there), trichillomania. My guess is my lack of effect has something to do with me having a low dopamine level. Low dopamine would explain all the disorders I already have. And the dopamine release from stimulants would only bring me to "baseline" or normal like the adderall does instead of giving me a high.
Would love to know what you think as to why I'm seemingly immune to stimulants??
P.S. Ran all the purity tests I possibly could find on the crystal... Everything checked out.