If you're using everyday I think the tolerance works against you. You don't know how your body is really doing because you're fucked up all the time. Glad you aren't doing it.
Also why would you risk death with something so disgusting at least have a 12 year old scotch or something.
Its morning now and I didnt do it, aha I feel ya on the ol scotch lol, im not a drinker, like the last time i actually drank was probably 6months maybe more ago, i just dont like alcohol, different strokes for different folks.
But I do need an increase of dosage on just one of my medications my xanax 1mg 3x daily just is NOT cutting it even with the phenobarbital. Im going to talk with my counselor today then when I go to my doctors hopefully have her help n word and he'll raise me my dose ... I fuckin hate doctors, I fuckin hate counselors, I fucking hate psychiatrist. I hate just being in this situation constantly not feeling good not getting correct dose of xanax, i might need the XR version may be or I need at least 1more mg which would only be 4mgs a day not much to someone like me who could eat prolly 3-5 bars and just have a slight buzz. People and doctors just dont realize that the medicaction was made for some people to use it correctly to be normal, then you have all these dumbass kids now and before, going to all the doctors getting the same meds and they go out and sell them and abuse them some even OD, and all that does is make it harder for someone like me who truely needs this medication and isnt abusing it, and all it does is make me normal, im around all my family,wife, counselor, lawyer for SSI and not one of them has ever seen me nodding out, or sleeping on myself nothing like that, im under-medicated if I could just get the right dose or XR formulation I believe I would be alot better off. Also dont suggest Klonopin I have already been on it and it makes me have irrability and doesn't go well with me ... Ive thought about valium as this agrees with me and I love how long it last but idk if he'll put me on that and equivalent dosage 4mgs of xanax equals right around 40mgs of valium, so maybe do you guy's think he'll put me on the 10mg valiums 4x a day???? Idk thats the only explanation I can think of besides rehab, and rehab is not an option im about to get me SSI back lump sum pay, then 1100$ a month because im married and they have to go back 2 1/2 years and pay me all that 1100$ back pay, and were going to go rent our own house, because currently at her parents house and its so shitty here I hate it, so I cant wait to move out, plus im a indoor and outdoor Legal Marijuana grower, so gotta make money I just dont have time for rehab currently. ... plus ill probaley be on some benzo and phenobarbital for life due to my epilepsy diagnosis and other mental health diagnosis... so I gotta get this all figured out, today I go to see my counselor and hopefully she we'll see things my way she usually does, but that shit she pulled last doctor visit saying she never said I should be increased on my xanax, when my last session she completely agreed and said I dont need no decreasing, that I need to increase it lmao so stupid like I said im so sick of dealing with all these people, and then my doctor just judges off appearance and because im a decent looking man he must think Im normal puttin on show, WHY??? Back track in the story because of others abusing all doctors privileges I have to suffer na fuck that, ima get this shit eventually figured out flat out, because im tired of living like this, and yes I have read almost every word from the ashton manual, thats why I suggested maybe I should go on Valium, or XR1mg xanax, something needs to change because im tired of feeling like shit basically every day.
