I'm Nothing Special

[Joey]

I've led my life in such a damn way
For you I've escaped my fate
But I’m nothing special
Thats nothing special
Today

Theres no way that Ive got what it takes
No chance to come back the same
Cause were nothing special
We were never special
No way

Im truly sad because once before
Weve played a good game
but youve left the loser
I threw nothing special
Your way

You're watching me fade so far away
Distantly in the rain
I'm standing here wet still
And that's all I get still
My shame

So if I cry for a life I can’t make
always hearing the same
That there's no chance l could
Your envisionments stood
In place

A waste, a waste,
but I still taste you,
every day youre home
A taste of life alone

And I feel so distraught.
I am no keepsake
For every time you come
I face you on my own

I love you so much
Can't you see me?
This waste of time
I’m crying for time
To change the things I cannot change
I can't change hope
Or how you've perceived me
It's too late for that

The reason being is
sometimes these things
they can't change back
I cant pull that trick
out of my cap
You're so much older
And so much wiser
So much more deeply uninspired

you're so much wiser and youve seen
what were going to be
that's nothing special
We don't see things level
You leave

Me, I've been distanced from your life
Excluded im your whore
I'm not in your future
Where I used to be there
Still here

I love you so much
Can't you see me?
This waste of time
I’m crying for time
To change the things I cannot change
I can't change hope
Or how you've perceived me
It's too late for that

The reason being is
sometimes these things
they can't change back
I cant pull that trick
out of my cap
And You're so much older
And so much wiser
So much more deeply uninspired

But even though
Ill come to know youve died
youll always be on my mind

you're still so special to me
In my heart, you're all those things
So kind I wish to be so kind

but im nothing special
Yeah im nothing special
Just me

And even though
I'll come to know you've died
You'll be alive in my mind

 

[Joey]

@BK38 and @cduggles

I just made some major edits if interested. This will change even more again once I'm writing the song and working it into the melody I have in mind. May wind up being more than one version of this... It's fucking sad

 

[Captain.Heroin]

I've led my life in such a damn way
For you I've escaped my fate
But I’m nothing special
Thats nothing special
Today

Theres no way that Ive got what it takes
No chance to come back the same
Cause were nothing special
We were never special
No way

Im truly sad because once before
Weve played a good game
but youve left the loser
I threw nothing special
Your way

You're watching me fade so far away
Distantly in the rain
I'm standing here wet still
And that's all I get still
My shame

So if I cry for a life I can’t make
always hearing the same
That there's no chance l could
Your envisionments stood
In place

A waste, a waste,
but I still taste you,
every day youre home
A taste of life alone

And I feel so distraught.
I am no keepsake
For every time you come
I face you on my own

I love you so much
Can't you see me?
This waste of time
I’m crying for time
To change the things I cannot change
I can't change hope
Or how you've perceived me
It's too late for that

The reason being is
sometimes these things
they can't change back
I cant pull that trick
out of my cap
You're so much older
And so much wiser
So much more deeply uninspired

you're so much wiser and youve seen
what were going to be
that's nothing special
We don't see things level
You leave

Me, I've been distanced from your life
Excluded im your whore
I'm not in your future
Where I used to be there
Still here

I love you so much
Can't you see me?
This waste of time
I’m crying for time
To change the things I cannot change
I can't change hope
Or how you've perceived me
It's too late for that

The reason being is
sometimes these things
they can't change back
I cant pull that trick
out of my cap
And You're so much older
And so much wiser
So much more deeply uninspired

But even though
Ill come to know youve died
youll always be on my mind

you're still so special to me
In my heart, you're all those things
So kind I wish to be so kind

but im nothing special
Yeah im nothing special
Just me

And even though
I'll come to know you've died
You'll be alive in my mind

It's missing so many apostrophes my OCD is basically telling me to jump on an apostrophe key on a keyboard and never let it go. Yet I still skip the apostrophes at times and am a total hypocrite.

Will give this a serious read - it looks pretty good thus far and on benzos (have not been using anything other than pot lately) I won't be so OCD that the missing apostrophes are going to set me off (I literally want to edit the post to include them... that's how you know you have OCD, etc.)

 

[Joey]

It's missing so many apostrophes my OCD is basically telling me to jump on an apostrophe key on a keyboard and never let it go. Yet I still skip the apostrophes at times and am a total hypocrite.

Will give this a serious read - it looks pretty good thus far and on benzos (have not been using anything other than pot lately) I won't be so OCD that the missing apostrophes are going to set me off (I literally want to edit the post to include them... that's how you know you have OCD, etc.)

Ill go over it again sometime. Thanks for the feedback.

 

[ions]

I find saying I love you in song is tough to sing. I say it on one of mine and I always smile

 

[Hylight]

I'm writing a book about hurricanes and tornadoes.
It's only draft right now.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Ill go over it again sometime. Thanks for the feedback.

Keep in mind most people can handle a missing apostrophes I’m the kind of person where it like sets of my OCD so bad I have to edit it before I can read it because I play with words so well I actuallythink you meant were not we’re. I’ll be totally confused if you’re doing something different.

and that’s my problem not yours just saying it’s a good piece of writing this far I just need to see you at polished Grammerly (MSWord addon) with word is perfect It will catch those kind of things

 

[Captain.Heroin]

By the way I’m about to lose reception for many hours on and don’t be worried I’m just going on a cool nature hike I’ll come back alive