wesleytoothny
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- Dec 9, 2015
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So check this out I'm 17 and started dropping tabs I did it once before and.it was great and then I took a took a supposed triple hit tab of acid... And at first it was awesome colors and shit and then I was listening to.some heavy music which I always do and I started to saw my arms and body tear apart and I started falling into a hole and I immediately jumped up and yelled "DON'T ME FALL INTO IT! FUCK" AND THE WHOLE NIGHT I was asking if everything is okay and my friends kept.saying yes!
And ever since then ive had terrible trouble with life...I've always been really.positive and chill and like good vibes always
And now I literally always feel like I'm.on the acid without the visuals.. I get a feeling like I'm flying away all the time or I get a feeling that my arms are tearing apart and im afraid to look at them so I'm.constantly holding my hands together or sitting on them cause I'm extremely scared and I'm constantly telling myself I'm okay and I've read ALOT of posts on here and like a lot.of them are people.mixing with acid but it was straight up just acid and weed and fruits and ciggs
I was the kind.of teen that faces an extendo like 3 times a day every day on top of blunts and bowl.packs with my friends after school
I'm in a really.successful band...and I have a lot.of friends.. Im always usually happy even when things are bad i mind.my.business and do me.. But at the time I took it my brother was put in prison like 2 days before and we were being evicted from our house in a month from.then we had it all.planned it and its all.working out like we planned and I did the acid to take my mind off shit and just chill with my boys and get trippy .. It was so.great at first great feeling super happy looked like I was seeing things for the first time and so many colors I've never seen before and I always hear acid won't show.you what isn't there just warp.it
But like imagine looking at your arms and seeing them split between your ring finger and middle finger all the way up and like I felt as if I was falling into a hole and it got completly dark and cold and my.body got a scary tingle around it.... And so it wore off after 6 hours.. Weird right? But whatever I took a walk with my friends and I was going so.fast doing everything I can to take my mind off of the scary part... And it finally went away... Then the next two weeks were smoking blunts and.getting high chilling and shit and then one day I'm sitting there coming and I got a tingly feeling and then I WENT BACK INTO THE TRIP!!!!! and they day I said the exact same.thing and did the same thing "DON'T LET ME FALL INTO IT GUYS! FUCK!"
AND they reassured me everything was fine and I'm like yo wtf I'm off the shit why did that happen and ever since then I have the acid high feeling... I can't even smoke a.blunt without getting terrible anxiety I can't be I'm the dark without freaking out... I constantly feel afraid always shaking.. And I can't focus my.mind... Everything feels off... I have no emotion... You know when you're just chilling watching TV you daze off into the show?... Well I can't do that... I'm constantly looking around, moving, and being freaked out... I told my mom she tolde how she used to.drop every week and double her doses and it.never did that and my.manager tells me he's never heard of this.. He drops 21 single hit tabs every 3 weeks and never have this problem and I refuse to go.back on it and see what happens... I just want to sit back and be myself again... I've never thought of suicide more in my life than at the moment everyday I just wish I could go back to normal and I fear one day I'll just hang myself or my brain will collapse or something... I know a I'd dehydrates your brain and that's where my light headed feeling comes from everyday all the time and I can't sleep... If I do its cause I pass out literally I pass out from exhaustion... And when.I do my dreams are so scary.. I have sleep paralysis every time... Not lucid dreams... Not that other thing... I can't move and I go.through the trip every time with nothing but a tinlge feeling
What can I do... Why am I feeling this way... What the fuck do I do... I love my life... I love my.family... I love my friends.. And I don't want to.die guys... But if this doesn't end or if I can subside this I won't make it.. I just won't.
I can't live with this constant bullshit always fucking freaking out I can't even have sex!! My girlfriend Gabe me.head for an hour and nothing no boner only.me freaking the fuckout scared. The whole time
The only time.it get remotely better is when I'm.at work and my mind is busy making food... Other than that I SIT there at practice questioning if I'm actually awake doing all this shit or sitting g somewhere mentally retarded from.this acid or fucking in an insane asylum thinking I'm.doing this and it freaks me.out!!! Am.I.alive or is this fucking fake!?!???? Please I have no.fucking idea I'm so fuckong fed up of this it makes me.so angry to.be like this I dropped out if fucking highschool cause of this! I'm a fucking mess!!! And I really.hope this message .writing is a message and not me fucking mentally fucked imaging this is happening I'm so miserable and.confused...
Someone... Anyone... Please give me some advice, say something to calm my.nerves reassure me things may be okay if they won't be tell me straight up... Just help me please
And ever since then ive had terrible trouble with life...I've always been really.positive and chill and like good vibes always
And now I literally always feel like I'm.on the acid without the visuals.. I get a feeling like I'm flying away all the time or I get a feeling that my arms are tearing apart and im afraid to look at them so I'm.constantly holding my hands together or sitting on them cause I'm extremely scared and I'm constantly telling myself I'm okay and I've read ALOT of posts on here and like a lot.of them are people.mixing with acid but it was straight up just acid and weed and fruits and ciggs
I was the kind.of teen that faces an extendo like 3 times a day every day on top of blunts and bowl.packs with my friends after school
I'm in a really.successful band...and I have a lot.of friends.. Im always usually happy even when things are bad i mind.my.business and do me.. But at the time I took it my brother was put in prison like 2 days before and we were being evicted from our house in a month from.then we had it all.planned it and its all.working out like we planned and I did the acid to take my mind off shit and just chill with my boys and get trippy .. It was so.great at first great feeling super happy looked like I was seeing things for the first time and so many colors I've never seen before and I always hear acid won't show.you what isn't there just warp.it
But like imagine looking at your arms and seeing them split between your ring finger and middle finger all the way up and like I felt as if I was falling into a hole and it got completly dark and cold and my.body got a scary tingle around it.... And so it wore off after 6 hours.. Weird right? But whatever I took a walk with my friends and I was going so.fast doing everything I can to take my mind off of the scary part... And it finally went away... Then the next two weeks were smoking blunts and.getting high chilling and shit and then one day I'm sitting there coming and I got a tingly feeling and then I WENT BACK INTO THE TRIP!!!!! and they day I said the exact same.thing and did the same thing "DON'T LET ME FALL INTO IT GUYS! FUCK!"
AND they reassured me everything was fine and I'm like yo wtf I'm off the shit why did that happen and ever since then I have the acid high feeling... I can't even smoke a.blunt without getting terrible anxiety I can't be I'm the dark without freaking out... I constantly feel afraid always shaking.. And I can't focus my.mind... Everything feels off... I have no emotion... You know when you're just chilling watching TV you daze off into the show?... Well I can't do that... I'm constantly looking around, moving, and being freaked out... I told my mom she tolde how she used to.drop every week and double her doses and it.never did that and my.manager tells me he's never heard of this.. He drops 21 single hit tabs every 3 weeks and never have this problem and I refuse to go.back on it and see what happens... I just want to sit back and be myself again... I've never thought of suicide more in my life than at the moment everyday I just wish I could go back to normal and I fear one day I'll just hang myself or my brain will collapse or something... I know a I'd dehydrates your brain and that's where my light headed feeling comes from everyday all the time and I can't sleep... If I do its cause I pass out literally I pass out from exhaustion... And when.I do my dreams are so scary.. I have sleep paralysis every time... Not lucid dreams... Not that other thing... I can't move and I go.through the trip every time with nothing but a tinlge feeling
What can I do... Why am I feeling this way... What the fuck do I do... I love my life... I love my.family... I love my friends.. And I don't want to.die guys... But if this doesn't end or if I can subside this I won't make it.. I just won't.
I can't live with this constant bullshit always fucking freaking out I can't even have sex!! My girlfriend Gabe me.head for an hour and nothing no boner only.me freaking the fuckout scared. The whole time
The only time.it get remotely better is when I'm.at work and my mind is busy making food... Other than that I SIT there at practice questioning if I'm actually awake doing all this shit or sitting g somewhere mentally retarded from.this acid or fucking in an insane asylum thinking I'm.doing this and it freaks me.out!!! Am.I.alive or is this fucking fake!?!???? Please I have no.fucking idea I'm so fuckong fed up of this it makes me.so angry to.be like this I dropped out if fucking highschool cause of this! I'm a fucking mess!!! And I really.hope this message .writing is a message and not me fucking mentally fucked imaging this is happening I'm so miserable and.confused...
Someone... Anyone... Please give me some advice, say something to calm my.nerves reassure me things may be okay if they won't be tell me straight up... Just help me please
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