I think I like it here (slam poem)

[Bella_Luvs_Blues]

Been gone for a while and been thru alot...sharing some of my faves and experiences..Thanks for listening

I THINK I LIKE IT HERE (SLAM POEM)


Last night I cried and the night before Im not sure
But…
I think My face was drenched wet in sorrow
cause I know tomorrow will bring the same things as yesterday
Blood Gushing, Tears Gushing Like Hail, I Failed
Wet to the Needels Sail..Did something I said I wouldn’t but I couldn’t take it
Picture painted of misery portrays
My broken soul
The world unfolds
Dark and desolate
But I think I like it here
It’s been years and I still havent left this pain
Same aches are the same
But this game has me like Jumangi
I gotta finish what I began
But who I am hates who I’ve become
and that doesn’t make sense cause
When I’m doped up i keep forgettin im too high to function
So my mind slips away as my needle slips its way into my
Arm and wrists
There goes bliss
The kind I taught myself to like the kind that keeps me safe at night
Or so I think its ok to feel this way
My doctor says it’s not but I forgot
And I really don’t care cause you weren’t there
How could you understand?
What are you telepathic
Let’s get graphic
And explain to me the errors of my functioning
The terrors that haunt me daily, ailing me,
cant be removed, nothings been proved
there’s no use fooling a fool
or teaching a teacher
cause when ignorance steps in
sanity hops out
and you have no idea what that’s about
On myside of the fence we got cookies
And I’m not a rookie
I been baking for years
These tears, there the main ingredient
Cause I cant seem to be obedient
and follow the initial instruction
down paths destruction
slowly but surely
I meet my demise
Cant rise above shit im uncomfortable with
I’ll cease to exist, can’t seem to resist the urge
To break away, never see the light of day
Never breath a breath of air..never again this aint fair
I’m a bit insatiable and I’m a bit incapable
Of doing this on my own….. if it hasn’t shown
I’M TELLING YOU NOW
And that’s why
I keep my friends close by
And I hide behind my smile
Like I child
And I did something wrong but I can’t tell my mom
So I keep it a secret the deepest of all
My needle hides all
But I keep my mouth shut cause
I think I like it here

 

[CosmicG]

I wake up in the morning with a smile on my face I take the the time to pack a bowl up and I realize it's a waste going to work for what to pay mortgage what's a house I would rather crawl up and die then frizzle and fry at least I always got my girls here right by my side.

Sorry i will come back to share some more later feeling beat up right now.