nycdude4fun
Greenlighter
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- Dec 5, 2017
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after about a year and a half of being meth free I went out over the holidays and have been relapsing since. this week, as per usual I smashed my pipe and flushed everything else....
...this morning however I fished the pipe out of the garbage (in a baggie) a separated the drugs from the broken glass. after the first bump I noticed I didn't get all the glass. did I stop there? NOPE. I was more through and did another glass filled bump. Then I read I what happens when you ingest glass. Brilliant.
five hours later I was in the ER for a panic attack (thinking it was my heart congested with shards of glass). X-Ray didn't find anything and got a thumbs up from the Doc. but I'm still; worried other problems will come up with any free floating shards or dust in my system.
This isn't what I want and this isn't the life I want to lead. while high it all sounds good but I know I want to live, I'm just worried I've created another obstacle for myself and body to deal with.
Anyone have any similar experiences? I guess I'm looking for a bit of hope.
...this morning however I fished the pipe out of the garbage (in a baggie) a separated the drugs from the broken glass. after the first bump I noticed I didn't get all the glass. did I stop there? NOPE. I was more through and did another glass filled bump. Then I read I what happens when you ingest glass. Brilliant.
five hours later I was in the ER for a panic attack (thinking it was my heart congested with shards of glass). X-Ray didn't find anything and got a thumbs up from the Doc. but I'm still; worried other problems will come up with any free floating shards or dust in my system.
This isn't what I want and this isn't the life I want to lead. while high it all sounds good but I know I want to live, I'm just worried I've created another obstacle for myself and body to deal with.
Anyone have any similar experiences? I guess I'm looking for a bit of hope.