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Mental Health I need some help

Quickfixgrrl

Quickfixgrrl

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I'm having an extremely bad day. I've left my partner, I have anxiety and depression and have just eaten well over a gram of Lyrica to escape myself.
I really think I need someone to talk to.
 
It just wasn't a healthy relationship and had to end. I feel so fucked up trying to process everything and hate myself for wanting to be numb and happy. It's all synthetic and I just want to not BE anymore.
Sorry , this is very disjointed..
Thank you for your reply.
Where are you from?
 
Quickfixgrrl said:
I'm having an extremely bad day. I've left my partner, I have anxiety and depression and have just eaten well over a gram of Lyrica to escape myself.
I really think I need someone to talk to.
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You can send me a message if you want. I'll be here the whole night.

Do you think you made the right decision with this person?
 
Lizzy1Fair said:
You can send me a message if you want. I'll be here the whole night.

Do you think you made the right decision with this person?
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Thanks so much x
I definitely made the right decision with him but it hasn't been easy at. I ache for him as I know he's in so much pain over this and if I could take his pain away I would do so in a heartbeat. We just don't belong together. We have kids so it makes it so much harder. I only want the very best for him and to co parent harmoniously.
 
It's probably cliché to say and might not help in the moment, but those bad feelings will pass with time!

I had a pretty rough break up about a year ago and I was devastated. I never even imagined the possibility of not being with this person forever... Now a year later I look back and realize how much better off I am for not being with them. And she's better off too. We just weren't compatible or happy anymore. Sometimes it's better to cut that shit off before it gets any worse. The pain might seem unbearable now, but it could have been so much worse down the road if you didn't end it.

People told me these things at the time and it made literally no difference lol I was still fucked up. I just picked up lots of extra hours at work, ate benzos every other night and watched porn until I eventually got over it ?‍♂️

Just try to find a healthier way to distract yourself from it if you can. You'll be back to normal before you know it!
 
Stay strong for your kids! They depend on you. It doesn't seem like it now but you can get through this and it will pass. Get yourself some therapy if you can find the time, drugs will just keep you from processing your emotions and healing.
 
Quickfixgrrl said:
Thanks so much x
I definitely made the right decision with him but it hasn't been easy at. I ache for him as I know he's in so much pain over this and if I could take his pain away I would do so in a heartbeat. We just don't belong together. We have kids so it makes it so much harder. I only want the very best for him and to co parent harmoniously.
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Tomorrow will be better and as each day goes by, it will get less difficult. You did the right thing for you, him and the kiddo from what you've stated. Not having any communication for a little while helps a lot. I usually break all ties of communication, take down/put away pictures and get rid of anything that is a reminder of him when I'm done. If you use social media like facebook, which I can't stand because of the way things are posted and who can and cannot see it ect., but not seeing his posts and stuff will be super helpful. I cannot tell you how many people I know who do this obsessive checking with the book of ugly faces and they literally drive themselves mad. Don't do it. Things will get better for both of you with time. & I hope you didn't take anymore Lyrica
 
Quickfixgrrl said:
I ache for him as I know he's in so much pain over this and if I could take his pain away I would do so in a heartbeat. We just don't belong together
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Girl you probably don’t feel like you are, but you’re SO STRONG for leaving him and it’s ok for you to feel down and sad. That’s a normal reaction and let your body feel the sadness right now so it can pass, and if you can try to focus on the small things that cheer you up during the day and taking care of YOU. Paint your nails, give yourself a mani-pedi, facial - whatever it is (probably not a ton of lyrica though) and ensure you’re eating right so your brain can be healthy too.

It’s going to be hard but like they said it WILL PASS, and eventually you’ll come out the other side even stronger than you are, and with more pride for having done the best (even though hardest) thing by leaving him.

I hope this helps, I can’t even imagine how you’re feeling right now but know that you’ll be OK and people are here for you! Keep us posted on how you’re doing.

- Honeybadger don’t care
 
Quickfixgrrl said:
You guys are awesome ? I'm right now sitting in a bubble bath with rock salt and lavender oil. I know today was a very, very hard day and I masked it with those pills.. I didn't take more and have no desire to.
I just want to sleep and wake up refreshed ?
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Sounds like you're already on the right path ? Keep your head up and take care of yourself.
 
Awesome! Super happy to hear. Please reach out to a therapist in your area though for weekly sessions. If you need help finding one, please let me know.
 
Quickfixgrrl said:
You guys are awesome ? I'm right now sitting in a bubble bath with rock salt and lavender oil. I know today was a very, very hard day and I masked it with those pills.. I didn't take more and have no desire to.
I just want to sleep and wake up refreshed ?
X
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Atta girl! You’re doing great, there will definitely be bad and good days, but just keep taking care of yourself, eating well and trying to get enough sleep and you’ll be able to be through this. Spending time with your kids, friends and family or whatever your support network is will make it even easier.

Watch out though for idolizing your relationship after a while, we tend to remember only the positive things and seem to forget all the negative in the relationship which led to the breakup in the first place. Since you’ll be seeing him probably because of the kids, and he might be on his best behavior, try to keep perspective in the long run as to why you’re doing this.

- Honeybadger don’t care
 
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