So yeah, some might know already from a thread i did, in wich i explained i was suffering from anxiety (its been two months now) after abusing nbome. I didnt overdose, but i left little time between each trip (one week between each one). The first time i did half and mixed it with weed and alcohol, then the next weekend i did a quarter mixed with weed, the other weekend i did another quarter, again the other weekend i did a quarter and finally the last weekend another quarter and like the half of another quarter. I believe it was the second trip when i have a bad one. The first reason why i believe i had a bad trip is because my best friend came with us and we had argued before so it was quite akward. The other reason and i believe the main one, is that we decided to go to a bar, and in my country the streets at night are very dangerous. Like 1 block behind us there was this fat dude, he was walking in the same direction than us, of course i believed we were being chased. Besides that a homeless man that looked like a typical argentinian thief asked us for some weed, so i got really scared that we might get robbed. When we finally arribed to the bus stop the fat dude was there, of course he was just walking there to take the bus, but i was convinced we were being chased. Long story short i had to go home and i keep on panicking there. I was really close of going to the hospital to tell them how i was feeling because i was sure i was about to have a hearth attack. I also considered in waking up my parents. I didnt. Eventually the panic attack dissapeared and i enjoyed the rest of the trip. The last time i triped i was in my house. I had a panic attack right in the middle of it, could handle it tho. Since then i havent consumed nothing else not even weed or alcohol. Well i have been anxious since i last tripped. Last two weeks i feel like i improved, the thoughts that used to start my anxiety are no longer doing them, from time to time i still feel anxious and some of the symptoms never left like waiking up really early in the morning or several times. The fast hearthbeats, back pain, etc. I was wondering if i could be traumatized by the bad trip, but i dont really get anxiety when i think of it or get any flashbacks or stuff like that, so i dont really think so. if someone have any idea of what happened, if this is permanent or not, or how much could things like this last it would be great to know. I read thread of people feeling anxious or depressed after using mdma, lsd and drugs like that but for some people it only lasted two weeks or a month, and this is my second month with anxiety. Thanks for reading!!
ps: i use the term "trip" but i dont really know if i tripped, i dont much experience with psychedelics. Since i only had a half or a quarter (depending on the day) i would say i had like a spiritual thing going on, i was just listening to music and looking videos in the computer like a retard. I didnt had any visuals, i mean everything feel weird and funny but the "best" visuals i got was when i was looking at the curtain moving because of the wind i kind of felt like the walls were moving just a little bit, not much tho, and i could see patterns in random stuff, but nothing too crazy, i didnt imagined the fat guy or the homeless dude, they were actually there
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ps: i use the term "trip" but i dont really know if i tripped, i dont much experience with psychedelics. Since i only had a half or a quarter (depending on the day) i would say i had like a spiritual thing going on, i was just listening to music and looking videos in the computer like a retard. I didnt had any visuals, i mean everything feel weird and funny but the "best" visuals i got was when i was looking at the curtain moving because of the wind i kind of felt like the walls were moving just a little bit, not much tho, and i could see patterns in random stuff, but nothing too crazy, i didnt imagined the fat guy or the homeless dude, they were actually there
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