Hello everyone, i'm relatively new here but i have a serious question.
To get the best answer, i will have to provide some background information.
My problem is that i can't concentrate, and now that i want to go stude at an university, i want to handle this problem like a pro!
You know, I finally want to make something from my future, i finally think to have found what can make me happy for the rest of my life. So it's serious...
Let's start with the beginning. When i was a young little boy (i'm 24 now) my parents got me tested twice by professionals, i think at ages of 5 and 11.
It clearly appeared there that i have ASS (autism spectrum disorder) an ADHD. Not only that, but it appeared that I was actually quite intelligent for that age.
So from a very young age, they started to give me ritalin, i've taken it in different dosages and both the regular and modified release variants.
This seemed to work a little, but it's not that good. (still the best i've tried)
I am a completely different person when I take it. I can actually feel it coming up and when it's there, my sense for hunger has completely vannished.
But for me, this substance makes the difference of keeping and losing my job. I can't focus at all when i don't use it, even if i try.
When not under influence, I can't focus on anything for longer than a second. When reading something or just when trying to understand something.
Not to brag or something, but it is very clear to me that I am way more intelligent than the average person. for EVERYTHING i question myself "why?" and "what causes that?" It's like people block themselves from asking questions and keep doing "dumb" things because it's what they are used to. I do lack some social skills, but not badly, and i am also very aware of my own thought pattern. Despite this i just can't focus on / process the bulk of the sensory input that my brain receives.
So ritalin helps me a little, but t also has clear disadvantages, including:
-It makes it (even more) difficult to fall asleep
-It gives me at least every 2 weeks a major headace which renders me useless for the rest of the entire day, usually starting somewhere at midday.
-It suppresses my apetite.
-It can be a dangerous combination drug but it's ok because if i go study i won't have much spare time for making fun.
-The realization that i am useless without it, at least to function in this society...
-probably some more...
I have tried not taking it and it always made matters a lot worse!
At this moment, ritalin is my best option, but in high school it didn't exactly work out very well, even when using ritalin, so i feel onfurtunate to conclude that i need something better to get even through UNIVERSITY and achieve this bachelor thing.
It is very very very important that i succeed at the first try, or at least in my first year, because i will be dependant on a "government money" because i also need to pay for my rent! if its not successful in my first year, my entire future is wasted and i can't even try again.
So please people, if anyone can tell me what else i could try or what to do, i'll appreciate any advice!
I can get prescriptons from my doctor probably, that won't be an obstacle.
So for those wo don't know, ritalin = methylphenidate.
Other things that i tried:
-3-FPM (gives me a headace)
-Ethylphenidate (too much serotonin activity)
-various nootropics (maybe i didn't try them long enough, but i didn't notie much also noopept seemed to cause headaces i think.. but still suggestions are welcome)
my own observations may suggest that cognitive enhancers have a higher chance to cause headaces, mainly, but not necesarily above / behing / in 1 of my eyes. Regular stimulants seem to be fine...
All help is welcomed, thanks! :D i love you all!
To get the best answer, i will have to provide some background information.
My problem is that i can't concentrate, and now that i want to go stude at an university, i want to handle this problem like a pro!
You know, I finally want to make something from my future, i finally think to have found what can make me happy for the rest of my life. So it's serious...
Let's start with the beginning. When i was a young little boy (i'm 24 now) my parents got me tested twice by professionals, i think at ages of 5 and 11.
It clearly appeared there that i have ASS (autism spectrum disorder) an ADHD. Not only that, but it appeared that I was actually quite intelligent for that age.
So from a very young age, they started to give me ritalin, i've taken it in different dosages and both the regular and modified release variants.
This seemed to work a little, but it's not that good. (still the best i've tried)
I am a completely different person when I take it. I can actually feel it coming up and when it's there, my sense for hunger has completely vannished.
But for me, this substance makes the difference of keeping and losing my job. I can't focus at all when i don't use it, even if i try.
When not under influence, I can't focus on anything for longer than a second. When reading something or just when trying to understand something.
Not to brag or something, but it is very clear to me that I am way more intelligent than the average person. for EVERYTHING i question myself "why?" and "what causes that?" It's like people block themselves from asking questions and keep doing "dumb" things because it's what they are used to. I do lack some social skills, but not badly, and i am also very aware of my own thought pattern. Despite this i just can't focus on / process the bulk of the sensory input that my brain receives.
So ritalin helps me a little, but t also has clear disadvantages, including:
-It makes it (even more) difficult to fall asleep
-It gives me at least every 2 weeks a major headace which renders me useless for the rest of the entire day, usually starting somewhere at midday.
-It suppresses my apetite.
-It can be a dangerous combination drug but it's ok because if i go study i won't have much spare time for making fun.
-The realization that i am useless without it, at least to function in this society...
-probably some more...
I have tried not taking it and it always made matters a lot worse!
At this moment, ritalin is my best option, but in high school it didn't exactly work out very well, even when using ritalin, so i feel onfurtunate to conclude that i need something better to get even through UNIVERSITY and achieve this bachelor thing.
It is very very very important that i succeed at the first try, or at least in my first year, because i will be dependant on a "government money" because i also need to pay for my rent! if its not successful in my first year, my entire future is wasted and i can't even try again.
So please people, if anyone can tell me what else i could try or what to do, i'll appreciate any advice!
I can get prescriptons from my doctor probably, that won't be an obstacle.
So for those wo don't know, ritalin = methylphenidate.
Other things that i tried:
-3-FPM (gives me a headace)
-Ethylphenidate (too much serotonin activity)
-various nootropics (maybe i didn't try them long enough, but i didn't notie much also noopept seemed to cause headaces i think.. but still suggestions are welcome)
my own observations may suggest that cognitive enhancers have a higher chance to cause headaces, mainly, but not necesarily above / behing / in 1 of my eyes. Regular stimulants seem to be fine...
All help is welcomed, thanks! :D i love you all!
