Nope, never was to the US yet but I'd definitely like to, I like travelling anyways but currently lack the money to and future doesn't look too bright.
Was in Switzerland, my country of origin ... and there, in Zurich. They had a huge, messy open drug scene in the 80s, first let the people be, then raided the place and finally settled to a policy of easy available treatment. Anything they wanted for me to get morphine was a positive urine sample, never had to prove anything else. They conducted an ADHD examination and as a result gave me stims (but also give them to some cocaine users, they openly asked me if I ever did coke and if how I reacted to it). Is a good place to get your meds, and a shitty place for therapy. But even in the neighboring region St. Gallen I met people who had to pick their morphine maintenance up every day even on holidays.
Yeah, I guess the situation in the US sucks. We have a differenciation between normal and private insurance as well but it's not that bad, yet recently they cracked down on people staying too long in a ward and put on a limit of 5-8 weeks inpatient time which helps nobody as these kept against their will aren't touched by this regulation.
Read about ketamine infusions costing more than 1000$ per week... that's absolutely crazy. I see how money reigns in the US even more than in most countries, maybe.
Modafinil is shit, it's like a strong coffee with longer duration even though some people do report a mood lift during the first day. Really unfortunate that your doc doesn't seem to want to prescribe Adderall or Vyvanse. Did you ever think about having AD(H)D?
Aaah yeah that makes sense.
I think they even give people diacetylmorphine in Switzerland now, right?
Shit I would love to move there, if I could afford it. Plus I'd have no idea where to go or what to do once I'd get there anyway. lol
I see some acceptance of letting people decide for themselves popping up in places like BC, Canada & Portland here in the US.
But these places are hundreds of miles away from me & just picking up & going there is probably impossible.
I see it as progress, but not much. Still not enough action being taken right now by anyone that i'm aware of to stop this madness.
I'm gonna ask my new psychiatrist to give me some ADHD testing if they're willing.
When I was a teenager, I was constantly daydreaming in all my classes & took straight F's in basically everything, except for art & science and stuff I actually enjoyed doing. How my mom didn't see this as a problem from 7-10th grade (with me repeating 8th grade twice due to all the F's) and get me some help, I have no idea.
I had trouble paying attention to teachers & reading books and stuff. Although I wouldn't say I had an issue with sitting still or anything like that. I got my license & then said fuck this & dropped out in 10th grade.
Was it ADHD? I dunno. I hated my school & a lot of the people there (got bullied pretty bad because I came out as gay in 7th grade & was a weirdo who wore crazy band shirts & weird accessories/hair) & was already struggling with depression & anxiety pretty bad by this point. It's carried over into my adult hood as well, but in different ways (and in some ways more profound). But what exactly is causing it & has caused it is always up for debate. I've never been properly tested. I do find that stimulants can ease my anxiety some times, depending on what it is & if I go overboard with it or not. A light dose of regular amphetamine or adderall could probably do wonders for me. Finding a doctor that is willing to let me try that, while also keeping my subs & benzos is gonna be a real challenge though.
I some times wonder if I could even be slightly on the atypical autism spectrum. But hell, I could go through probably every psychiatric illness there is & relate to some of the symptoms in some form or another.
Is there a type of ADHD/ADD that just presents itself as an attention issue rather than the "hyperactive kid" scenario I always hear about?
I do find that now as an adult, I cannot stand or sit in one spot now without having to sway back n forth or shake my legs furiously. But some of that is anxiety & the physical sensation of standing making me uncomfortable & spastic.