Thelasttime
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Apr 5, 2020
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I am so broken. I was on methadone and clean for 9 months but my boyfriend of 4 years just left me and kicked me out after admitting he was no longer in love with me and wanted to see other people. The pain and sadness from that and also losing my job due to the pandemic has me so lost. I am not strong enough to stay clean any longer. I was on 150mg of methadone a day and I need to know how much dope do I need to do to finally feel something. Anything...I know I failed but the pain of him looking at me and telling me he wasn’t sure if he was ever in love with me was too much for me to process. I’ve given up now. I just want to be numb.