I'm doing OK... was really depressed this weekend... when you realize the fun is over and it's time to man up and pay attention to your life. My mom is getting married again to this cool dude and I'm really happy for her, I wish I could have shown more enthusiasm. She's had some really shitty cards in her life and deserves a good man in her twilight years.
It's ugly when you wake up from a long drunk and realize there are bottles of liquor full of piss and your room smells like shit.... it's never fun not remembering several days in a row and wake up in this ugliness....
Been nursing a few tall boys but certainly haven't been drunk in the last 48 hours... the voices/music I hear are starting to go away.... just gonna sit on the rest of my LSD for now...
I desperately wish I could just go to rehab without paying for it like in the past. Really sucks the position I'm in where I'm not officially a resident so I can't get state help. Still fucking waiting on my medicaid application to get approved, been well over a month.
I might take a break from this site. I love it here, but it's kinda distracting when you need to focus on yourself and your goals. IDK.... thanks, though, people.