TenaciousOne00
Greenlighter
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- May 24, 2020
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Yesterday I was discharged from the psych hospital. I left against medical advice. They wanted me there until at least Tuesday. My mind was going crazy and I wanted to get high. So that’s what I did. It’s an endless cycle.
I was in the hospital since Monday night. I was taken to the ER Sunday night by a friend. I had done a crap load of drugs that day and was going to harm myself further. She showed up though and it was off to the ER. I was there for 20 hours before they could medically clear me to go to a psych hospital. I was honest with everyone about my thoughts and plans. So there was the best place for me.
I’ve been up all night and reality has hit yet what damage the last couple weeks of use could cause. I had almost 8 months clean. Now I question if I want recovery.
Im tired of the endless cycle emotionally and with my addiction. I feel like I’m failing all around. A smile will hide a lot though... and that is what I do.
I was in the hospital since Monday night. I was taken to the ER Sunday night by a friend. I had done a crap load of drugs that day and was going to harm myself further. She showed up though and it was off to the ER. I was there for 20 hours before they could medically clear me to go to a psych hospital. I was honest with everyone about my thoughts and plans. So there was the best place for me.
I’ve been up all night and reality has hit yet what damage the last couple weeks of use could cause. I had almost 8 months clean. Now I question if I want recovery.
Im tired of the endless cycle emotionally and with my addiction. I feel like I’m failing all around. A smile will hide a lot though... and that is what I do.