Hey so ive done DMT 5 times. The first time was kind of cool, i didnt have enough to breakthrough but there was lots of pretty patterns and my reality went kind of mechanical and computerized. The second and third times, i didnt have enough to do much except see pretty patterns and colours and stuff. Then the fourth and fifth times were the stuff of nightmares. The fourth i was laying in my partner and is bedroom alone in the room with the lights off, took a hit and laid back. I waited to see what would happen and asked the dmt to show me something beautiful. And then slowly, everything around me turned dark and evil. I then felt these needles sticking into my body. I noticed that i was enclosed in some kind of device that was holding me in place over a big tank. They were holding me in place with metal clasps by my wrists and ankles. When i say "they", it was then that i started to see these absolutely evil looking black robotic alien-snake type beings with red eyes. They were all around me staring at me. They were the face of absolute evil. At this stage i was unable to move or even catch on to what i was experiences. As i laid there it became clear to me that these beings were holding me there to torture me. They were injecting me with drugs like meth and those drugs would control my thoughts, actions and emotions in the real world. So then i realised that what was happening was very similar to the matrix. In this evil dimension they had me unconcious, tied up to all these needles and drips and tubes pumping me full of drugs that were controlling the way i was behaving in my "reality" (our world as we know it). Because they were pumping me full of bad drugs like meth, (i am a regular user of meth, in the proces of getting clean, not something im at all proud of), it was causing me to behave in negative ways. Very typical of a meth addiction. Meth addicts generally lead lives full of a whole lot of negativity. And all this negativity was what the aliens wwre torturing me for in the evil dimension. They were torturing negative energy out of me so that they could use it as a power source, like energy. So now im slowly starting to realise whats actually going on around me and suddenly i become terrified. These alien things are all looking down at me and it became apparent that they were confused as to why i was concious and could see them. They didnt like it one bit and started to become enraged. This horrified me so I start trying my absolute hardest to get up and i scream so loudly but nothing comes out. Suddenly I manage to break free of their torture device and attempt to run to my closed bedroom door. The two metres from my bed to my door feels like im running for 100s and 100s of metres. The alien beings are absolutely enraged and come chasing after me. I reach out for my door but i cant feel it. Its not there, its almost as if my hands going through it. I cant see anything but blackness and the inside of some kind of corridor that looks to me like the inside of a spaceship or something. When I think back on it now, it may not of been a spaceship it could of been some kind of metal military bunker or fortress or something im not sure, "spaceship" was just the vibe i got at the time. Could of been anything, i just know the walls were metal. As i scream and scream i start to be able to get some sounds coming out of my mouth. I started screaming out to my boyfriend who is outside having a cigarette with some friends. He later on tells me he didnt hear anything at all. I finally manage to feel the door handle and i struggle to grasp my hand over the knob to open it. I finally stumble out of the room and race outside into my boyfriends arms crying shaking and screaming. Everyone was in shock. They had all done dmt before, some of them are quite experienced with it but they had never seen anything like it. I have no idea what this trip means. Am hoping somebody can shed some light on it for me
And then for my 5th time trying dmt a few days ago, i make sure im free of all negative thoughts and fears before i take in the hit, i also meditate before it. I try again and take the hit in, a reasonably small hit but still enough to have a decent effect. Much smaller than the last time though. I lay back and again i ask the dmt to show me the beauty of life and the world. Suddenly those same alien snake robot beings start materializing. I begin to feel my body being encapsured by their device and i start to feel as though im in some kind of tank. But this time the aliens have their backs turned to me, talking amongst themselves and making some kind of calculations. It came to me that they were recording some form of test results of an experiment on humans. Before it goes any further, i freak out and scream and open my eyes and shake my head until the vision goes away. Thankfully this time wasnt nearly as intense so im able to quickly come out of it. My boyfriend, sitting next to me is puzzled and says no way not again? And then he hugs me and tells me everything is alright as im pretty shaken up and upset. He reassures me im safe but i still dont feel safe. I cant shake the idea out of my mind that in another dimension im being held captive and being tortured. For the next hour or so i feel needles sticking into my body and things poking and prodding into me. Every time this happens i flinch and try to shake it off, it kind of hurts.
For some background information, i am schizophrenic. But my views on schizophrenia are that its much more complicated than simply a mental illness. Schizophrenics were called shamans in history. My intuition is incredibly strong, borderline psychic to the point where i have really freaked people out with some things ive predicted. I have intuitive feelings when i know somethings wrong or when im being lied to. I sometimes feel as though i am being channeled by some kind of higher being when i speak as i sometimes speak information about the world we live in that hasnt come from my own mind. My partner and friends sometimes listen to me for ages when i do this, so interested in what im saying. Its like im getting the information from a higher source of concioussness, information to deliver to the human race. Some of the things i have said are pretty scary. And other things have been veru helpful, insightful and positive. I wish i could go into details and explain everything thats been happening in my life but id be typing for days. The people running this world are downright cruel and evil thats all i can say. Its awful what they are doing to us. So if anyone could shed some light on what they think these trips might mean, that would be great as they have started to really get to me, i just dont understand what it is that the dmt was showing me. It felt so real and so evil. Terrifying.
And then for my 5th time trying dmt a few days ago, i make sure im free of all negative thoughts and fears before i take in the hit, i also meditate before it. I try again and take the hit in, a reasonably small hit but still enough to have a decent effect. Much smaller than the last time though. I lay back and again i ask the dmt to show me the beauty of life and the world. Suddenly those same alien snake robot beings start materializing. I begin to feel my body being encapsured by their device and i start to feel as though im in some kind of tank. But this time the aliens have their backs turned to me, talking amongst themselves and making some kind of calculations. It came to me that they were recording some form of test results of an experiment on humans. Before it goes any further, i freak out and scream and open my eyes and shake my head until the vision goes away. Thankfully this time wasnt nearly as intense so im able to quickly come out of it. My boyfriend, sitting next to me is puzzled and says no way not again? And then he hugs me and tells me everything is alright as im pretty shaken up and upset. He reassures me im safe but i still dont feel safe. I cant shake the idea out of my mind that in another dimension im being held captive and being tortured. For the next hour or so i feel needles sticking into my body and things poking and prodding into me. Every time this happens i flinch and try to shake it off, it kind of hurts.
For some background information, i am schizophrenic. But my views on schizophrenia are that its much more complicated than simply a mental illness. Schizophrenics were called shamans in history. My intuition is incredibly strong, borderline psychic to the point where i have really freaked people out with some things ive predicted. I have intuitive feelings when i know somethings wrong or when im being lied to. I sometimes feel as though i am being channeled by some kind of higher being when i speak as i sometimes speak information about the world we live in that hasnt come from my own mind. My partner and friends sometimes listen to me for ages when i do this, so interested in what im saying. Its like im getting the information from a higher source of concioussness, information to deliver to the human race. Some of the things i have said are pretty scary. And other things have been veru helpful, insightful and positive. I wish i could go into details and explain everything thats been happening in my life but id be typing for days. The people running this world are downright cruel and evil thats all i can say. Its awful what they are doing to us. So if anyone could shed some light on what they think these trips might mean, that would be great as they have started to really get to me, i just dont understand what it is that the dmt was showing me. It felt so real and so evil. Terrifying.
I can say when the trips are good they will also exceed your expectations. So to aim for that is a good thing.