Ok so here is the low down. I have used MDMA and Ecstasy a fair few times before at home and on holiday and everytime has been an unreal experience, danced away, made friends, fallen in love haha and just generally a good time. However, I was abroad in Amsterdam for a couple of days and went to a big gig with 5 friends, we all bought a gram each and knowing what good MD looks like the stuff looked ace so we bought it.
Dropped it and night was pretty decent to start out, good roll, feeling the love, however towards the last hour and a half is when everything changed. I suddenly got this feeling that everyone was talking about me and saying horrific things. Everytime I walked past them I thought they were either calling me ugly, or stupid, brain dead, moron and suddenly felt trapped and horrifically depressed. I stopped dancing and sat in a chair for an hour constantly thinking people were talking about me. It wasn't me coming down either because I was still buzzing.
My friends came and found me at the end all buzzing and having a great time but in the taxi home I sat and said nothing. They were having a normal conversation between them but I was so paranoid I felt as if they were talking in code and slagging me off and thought they were looking at me as if I was about to cry and tbh I was actually welling up and probably could have but had to really tell my mind not to. It was absolutly bizarre and now has me thinking 4 or 5 days later whether it was all real or whether the drugs just had a weird effect. My 5 friends btw all had the same stuff and were fine.
Has this ever happened to anyone or something similar? Like I said usually the experience is an awesome one but this has made me never want to use it again. I now even feel slightly depressed daily and wonder if this is a result.
Dropped it and night was pretty decent to start out, good roll, feeling the love, however towards the last hour and a half is when everything changed. I suddenly got this feeling that everyone was talking about me and saying horrific things. Everytime I walked past them I thought they were either calling me ugly, or stupid, brain dead, moron and suddenly felt trapped and horrifically depressed. I stopped dancing and sat in a chair for an hour constantly thinking people were talking about me. It wasn't me coming down either because I was still buzzing.
My friends came and found me at the end all buzzing and having a great time but in the taxi home I sat and said nothing. They were having a normal conversation between them but I was so paranoid I felt as if they were talking in code and slagging me off and thought they were looking at me as if I was about to cry and tbh I was actually welling up and probably could have but had to really tell my mind not to. It was absolutly bizarre and now has me thinking 4 or 5 days later whether it was all real or whether the drugs just had a weird effect. My 5 friends btw all had the same stuff and were fine.
Has this ever happened to anyone or something similar? Like I said usually the experience is an awesome one but this has made me never want to use it again. I now even feel slightly depressed daily and wonder if this is a result.
