ThatSpaceyKid
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 10, 2015
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And.... I have arrived ladies and gentleman... To the point where I've lost every one... All my bridges are burned.... But it's bad this time. There isnt mending most of my relationships to family, friends, acquaintances.... I just lost the 2 people who were rolling with me and who were cheering for me.... And the ones who at least tried to help me through my times of hopeless despair.... All I have left is The Santa Muerte.... I'm all for Jesus.. And the will of God.. But.... Wicca has become a powerful weapon for me.... My life's become a fucked up comedy sort of real world joke of a production.... Every one is against me. But that's only the people who should love me..... But dont.. But I admit its kinda an old wound I've started to move past.. That bitter feeling and those memories of constant rejection, confusion, feeling inferior, being shunned, straight up being mind fucked by my supposed loved ones.... But this feeling now... It's so familiar and sad.... I'm a failure. I lost every one... Now I'm stuck with my family who put me in this dark place in the first place...
Santisma Muerte has made me fall in love.... This folks is logically a result of high doses and psychosis
. But.... 7 years now of mama meth...... I am built to get high..... But my brother straight up admitted to the mind fuckery. True perceptions.. And divine insight.... One screwed up part about meth is.... The sleep dep. The chaos. The desperation. The dereliction is extreme and classic when an addict has lost the ability to stop by his or any others power.... Jails institutions... Or death. So the humiliation. The negativity in them and their homes... The fucked up luck and adventures we all have.... I was also a heroin addict for a long time.... It fosters a perfect environment for such things as demonic infestation and or possession... I dont watch tv or keep up with main stream shit.... I've purged a lot out... I'm talking real cases of demonic activity. Which does go hidden or disguised because what does society have to say about drugs addicts.... I am quite intelligent for being a meth addict....
And one that has pushed themselves this far..... Surely does acquire certain extrasensory traits. Per se. And surely it is not from any thing with high vibrations. I've been on the jaws of death for a long time now. I feel like I've left my body and my soul is gone and wandering and some one stole my prosperity.... I am at my ends. So many people curse me..... I am almost pure and I do not do wrong as much as possible. I work and never really stole for my drugs....
Alas let's cut the addict pride bull shit..... I dont know what to do.... I just keep making it all worse. I am in so much debt right now because my addiction always comes first.....My family is done with me and just keeps me around because they know I don't give a fuck and they helped in the process of destroying every thing.... I have no where to go ...
Santisma Muerte has made me fall in love.... This folks is logically a result of high doses and psychosis
. But.... 7 years now of mama meth...... I am built to get high..... But my brother straight up admitted to the mind fuckery. True perceptions.. And divine insight.... One screwed up part about meth is.... The sleep dep. The chaos. The desperation. The dereliction is extreme and classic when an addict has lost the ability to stop by his or any others power.... Jails institutions... Or death. So the humiliation. The negativity in them and their homes... The fucked up luck and adventures we all have.... I was also a heroin addict for a long time.... It fosters a perfect environment for such things as demonic infestation and or possession... I dont watch tv or keep up with main stream shit.... I've purged a lot out... I'm talking real cases of demonic activity. Which does go hidden or disguised because what does society have to say about drugs addicts.... I am quite intelligent for being a meth addict.... And one that has pushed themselves this far..... Surely does acquire certain extrasensory traits. Per se. And surely it is not from any thing with high vibrations. I've been on the jaws of death for a long time now. I feel like I've left my body and my soul is gone and wandering and some one stole my prosperity.... I am at my ends. So many people curse me..... I am almost pure and I do not do wrong as much as possible. I work and never really stole for my drugs....
Alas let's cut the addict pride bull shit..... I dont know what to do.... I just keep making it all worse. I am in so much debt right now because my addiction always comes first.....My family is done with me and just keeps me around because they know I don't give a fuck and they helped in the process of destroying every thing.... I have no where to go ...
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lol.
