It's been 47 hours since my last dose, my entire family is away on vacation and I'm trapped here in the house with no means of transportation, no nearby friends, no anything. Just the internet and this godforsaken bed that I haven't left since yesterday, even though no position is comfortable.
I'm a bit upset, actually. I was expecting to be so much worse at this point, and the fact that I'm not tells me that my shit was more fentanyl than dope which pisses me off cause that just stretches this whole process out and I don't have that many meds to work with. Yesterday was pretty hard mentally, i took my clonidine and beta blockers and watched as much Netflix as I could, last night I slept but a wink or two. This morning i finally caved and did up 1/8 of a sub, and after 20 minutes of (perhaps psychosomatic?) increased hot and cold flashes I'm feeling rather normal, although bored out of my damned mind.
I guess, bluelight, I'm posting out of nothing better to do. I'm trying my hardest to leave the rest of my sub alone. god I hate kicking.
I'm a bit upset, actually. I was expecting to be so much worse at this point, and the fact that I'm not tells me that my shit was more fentanyl than dope which pisses me off cause that just stretches this whole process out and I don't have that many meds to work with. Yesterday was pretty hard mentally, i took my clonidine and beta blockers and watched as much Netflix as I could, last night I slept but a wink or two. This morning i finally caved and did up 1/8 of a sub, and after 20 minutes of (perhaps psychosomatic?) increased hot and cold flashes I'm feeling rather normal, although bored out of my damned mind.
I guess, bluelight, I'm posting out of nothing better to do. I'm trying my hardest to leave the rest of my sub alone. god I hate kicking.