Gorillaboy21
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I'm kicking , I waited till hour 22 and caved in with .1 shot
It's progress for me, I usually do minimum 4-8 .1-.2 shots a day to stay well generally need .5+ to stay well ...
I was addicted to gabapentin and quit that I have a fimeline thread posted here on that.
Also addicted to benzos not prescribed ever , managed to taper recently and jumped off at 2 mgs Valium .
My semester of school ended I have 1 week to get my life together . I haven't gone more than 36 hours without a shot or opiates in 3 years and I'm pissed at myself , like tonight again took tons of Xanax which I only want to for very serious moments cause I don't want to become re dependent on them.
I'm gonna stick to this .1 only today which will be progress , an entire day taking 1/4 if not less of my usual daily amount , but I expected more.
I'm sorry I'm here to vent I have no one to tell these secrets to .
Any advice guys ? I came up on phenobarbital which I've never done before or seen .
My problem is when I take benzos and relax I smoke weed and feel better where I can tolerate the detox and watch tv , but than when I smoke too much or too much benzos I get this low blood pressure fatigue feeling where I just don't wanna move and my brain has this kind of brain zap feeling where I'm really out of it , I feel like that fucks me up every time and I have to get well and it's not cause of pain or throwing up from the withdrawals but rather the brain fatigueness that makes me feel so uneasy mentally .
Anyways I'm going to do my best, I have the absolute best detox arsenal kit to quit there should be no excuse , if I can't kick now I can't ever.
I have benzos , zofran, weed (medical prescription), morphine ER to taper if needed , phenobarbital, subuxone, and more all at my possession and I still can't get passed 36 hours in 3-4 years what the fuck ??? ?
I'm kicking , I waited till hour 22 and caved in with .1 shot
It's progress for me, I usually do minimum 4-8 .1-.2 shots a day to stay well generally need .5+ to stay well ...
I was addicted to gabapentin and quit that I have a fimeline thread posted here on that.
Also addicted to benzos not prescribed ever , managed to taper recently and jumped off at 2 mgs Valium .
My semester of school ended I have 1 week to get my life together . I haven't gone more than 36 hours without a shot or opiates in 3 years and I'm pissed at myself , like tonight again took tons of Xanax which I only want to for very serious moments cause I don't want to become re dependent on them.
I'm gonna stick to this .1 only today which will be progress , an entire day taking 1/4 if not less of my usual daily amount , but I expected more.
I'm sorry I'm here to vent I have no one to tell these secrets to .
Any advice guys ? I came up on phenobarbital which I've never done before or seen .
My problem is when I take benzos and relax I smoke weed and feel better where I can tolerate the detox and watch tv , but than when I smoke too much or too much benzos I get this low blood pressure fatigue feeling where I just don't wanna move and my brain has this kind of brain zap feeling where I'm really out of it , I feel like that fucks me up every time and I have to get well and it's not cause of pain or throwing up from the withdrawals but rather the brain fatigueness that makes me feel so uneasy mentally .
Anyways I'm going to do my best, I have the absolute best detox arsenal kit to quit there should be no excuse , if I can't kick now I can't ever.
I have benzos , zofran, weed (medical prescription), morphine ER to taper if needed , phenobarbital, subuxone, and more all at my possession and I still can't get passed 36 hours in 3-4 years what the fuck ??? ?