rollin_stoned
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Feb 3, 2009
- Messages
- 1,042
Wake up, you feel the claws of the beast clawing at your brain, you can almost feel it. You're anxious because you don't know if you'll be able to get any dope today, but you're excited for the adventure that's about to ensue. Hours pass, you've found change around your place, managed to manipulate money out of family and friends again, and you even found something that's worth pawning. You get your money....30 dollars, but hell, at least it's something. You feel a huge wave of excitement pass through your body.
Call your dealer, he says to come through in 30 minutes. The seconds feel like hours, and you try to find something to occupy your mind, but you're glancing at the clock every minute. Exactly 30 minutes has passed. You're angry and scared that your dealer hasn't called you back, so you immediately call him. No answer....dread and anger raises. Text him saying you'll just buy from someone else even though you both know you won't.
He texts back, you fumble your phone as you go to open the message. "Come through" the text says. You literally screech with joy and do a little dance around your room while putting your shoes on. You're hair looks like shit, you haven't showered in 4 days, brushed your teeth in a week...but who gives a fuck.
Hop in your car, and get there as fast as you can. Text your dealer as soon as you get there.....time slows again. THERE HE IS! OH THANK GOD! He gets in your car....you put your hand out like the servant you are and he drops the bags in your hand while taking your money. He lights a cigarette and tells you to drive around the block. Time slows again. You drop him off and drive to the nearest parking lot. Driving as cautiously as possible.
Park. Your hands are shaking not only from the withdrawal, but from the excitement as well. Dump the beautifully tan powder into the spoon. Draw up 50 units of water and squirt it all over your dope. Cook it up....smell that beautiful smell. You're already feeling high just from the thought alone.
Quickly now, while no one is watching. Tie up, find the vein. Ah, yes, that one always works.
Here it is....the first rush. You feel the pop as the needle goes into your vein. Eyes widen with excitement. Pull back on the plunger. First rush engaged. That beautiful red plume that is the sign of a perfect tapping into your lifeline. You're only seconds away now from what you've been craving since you woke up.
Slowly, now. Push....push.....it's in....it's all in.
Untie. The tingles moving from your shoulder quickly begin to spread throughout your chest. The relaxation you feel is so intense that you cough. You realize how much tension you have been carrying in your shoulders and back all day as you feel each cell begin to relax. It's moving now.....crawling up your neck. Caressing your entire head and brain and soul from the bottom up. You close your eyes to truly savor the moment.
This is it....This is absolute perfection. You could give two shits if the world ended. What's it matter if you dropped your classes again this semester? Got fired again? It only interfered with you getting high anyway. Nothing matters. You're floating now...feel completely weightless as you flow through a warm sea of security and happiness. You should probably smoke a cigarette now.
Take a couple of drags, here's the nod. You don't even realize it at first. It begins by you just losing track of time....then you realize you're going into different planes of reality. You're having incredibly realistic close-eyed visuals. Almost like a dream, but you're completely in touch with the real world. At least you think you are. You're burning a hole in your jeans now, this snaps you back to reality. Take a few more drags, turn on your favorite song, lean the chair back, and enjoy the nod a few more minutes.
It keeps sucking you in. You're almost fighting to stay awake now, but then again, you couldn't sleep even if you tried.
Cigarette's done. Sit back up, start your car, and start your drive back. You're missing the high already and thinking of how you can get money for your next shot....no worries though, you'll find a way somehow.
Call your dealer, he says to come through in 30 minutes. The seconds feel like hours, and you try to find something to occupy your mind, but you're glancing at the clock every minute. Exactly 30 minutes has passed. You're angry and scared that your dealer hasn't called you back, so you immediately call him. No answer....dread and anger raises. Text him saying you'll just buy from someone else even though you both know you won't.
He texts back, you fumble your phone as you go to open the message. "Come through" the text says. You literally screech with joy and do a little dance around your room while putting your shoes on. You're hair looks like shit, you haven't showered in 4 days, brushed your teeth in a week...but who gives a fuck.
Hop in your car, and get there as fast as you can. Text your dealer as soon as you get there.....time slows again. THERE HE IS! OH THANK GOD! He gets in your car....you put your hand out like the servant you are and he drops the bags in your hand while taking your money. He lights a cigarette and tells you to drive around the block. Time slows again. You drop him off and drive to the nearest parking lot. Driving as cautiously as possible.
Park. Your hands are shaking not only from the withdrawal, but from the excitement as well. Dump the beautifully tan powder into the spoon. Draw up 50 units of water and squirt it all over your dope. Cook it up....smell that beautiful smell. You're already feeling high just from the thought alone.
Quickly now, while no one is watching. Tie up, find the vein. Ah, yes, that one always works.
Here it is....the first rush. You feel the pop as the needle goes into your vein. Eyes widen with excitement. Pull back on the plunger. First rush engaged. That beautiful red plume that is the sign of a perfect tapping into your lifeline. You're only seconds away now from what you've been craving since you woke up.
Slowly, now. Push....push.....it's in....it's all in.
Untie. The tingles moving from your shoulder quickly begin to spread throughout your chest. The relaxation you feel is so intense that you cough. You realize how much tension you have been carrying in your shoulders and back all day as you feel each cell begin to relax. It's moving now.....crawling up your neck. Caressing your entire head and brain and soul from the bottom up. You close your eyes to truly savor the moment.
This is it....This is absolute perfection. You could give two shits if the world ended. What's it matter if you dropped your classes again this semester? Got fired again? It only interfered with you getting high anyway. Nothing matters. You're floating now...feel completely weightless as you flow through a warm sea of security and happiness. You should probably smoke a cigarette now.
Take a couple of drags, here's the nod. You don't even realize it at first. It begins by you just losing track of time....then you realize you're going into different planes of reality. You're having incredibly realistic close-eyed visuals. Almost like a dream, but you're completely in touch with the real world. At least you think you are. You're burning a hole in your jeans now, this snaps you back to reality. Take a few more drags, turn on your favorite song, lean the chair back, and enjoy the nod a few more minutes.
It keeps sucking you in. You're almost fighting to stay awake now, but then again, you couldn't sleep even if you tried.
Cigarette's done. Sit back up, start your car, and start your drive back. You're missing the high already and thinking of how you can get money for your next shot....no worries though, you'll find a way somehow.