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Itsallagame666
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Is it possible for someone to have an acute reaction and become permanently psycholotic?
Quick rundown: I had a traumatic brain injury last July. The love of my life cheated on me with with a creep and he said he was going to "have me killed". Someone shot at my house, and a lot of bullsh* was going on. Come Halloween in my already on edge state of mind I unknowingly smoked meth while camping (I was desperate for friends and naive). I remember hitting a bowl with crystals in it (very drunk at the time) and not realizing it until I had taken the hit. immediately felt invincible and indescribably evil like all the anger in my life had come to the surface and It was a feeling of pure evil and invulnerability, like I was an entity and not a person, anyway about a week later I felt like I was dead, sweating and rolling around in my bed wondering if I was going to die and go to hell for doing meth. Well it was like a was still half high for months. Months of schizophrenia, hypertension, sweating, feeling like a tweaker, self esteem gone, unable to feel good at all, unable to feel pain, and still feel hypertension and the weird evil anger a year later, I feel very violated and cynical of the world. Iv lost a lot of cognitive ability since and it's frustrating, there's been a lot of days i feel better off dead/ruined. Iv lost all of my friends because of how Iv changed. I appear emotionless and evil according to everyone, even my mom. It's like Iv lost the ability to think. Even though, I have an iq of 160. It's more or less like my brain is broken. I can't remember my childhood. I can't feel. What do I do with myself from now on because I feel like my life is a sick joke. Who has any experience with this kind of thing or knows about meth toxicity and what can be done to return to normal. I miss the person i was.
Quick rundown: I had a traumatic brain injury last July. The love of my life cheated on me with with a creep and he said he was going to "have me killed". Someone shot at my house, and a lot of bullsh* was going on. Come Halloween in my already on edge state of mind I unknowingly smoked meth while camping (I was desperate for friends and naive). I remember hitting a bowl with crystals in it (very drunk at the time) and not realizing it until I had taken the hit. immediately felt invincible and indescribably evil like all the anger in my life had come to the surface and It was a feeling of pure evil and invulnerability, like I was an entity and not a person, anyway about a week later I felt like I was dead, sweating and rolling around in my bed wondering if I was going to die and go to hell for doing meth. Well it was like a was still half high for months. Months of schizophrenia, hypertension, sweating, feeling like a tweaker, self esteem gone, unable to feel good at all, unable to feel pain, and still feel hypertension and the weird evil anger a year later, I feel very violated and cynical of the world. Iv lost a lot of cognitive ability since and it's frustrating, there's been a lot of days i feel better off dead/ruined. Iv lost all of my friends because of how Iv changed. I appear emotionless and evil according to everyone, even my mom. It's like Iv lost the ability to think. Even though, I have an iq of 160. It's more or less like my brain is broken. I can't remember my childhood. I can't feel. What do I do with myself from now on because I feel like my life is a sick joke. Who has any experience with this kind of thing or knows about meth toxicity and what can be done to return to normal. I miss the person i was.