Superduperstuper
Greenlighter
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- Mar 18, 2017
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I have been an iv meth addict for 20 years now. I am almost 35 years old. Recently I decided I wanted to seek help for my addiction due to the obvious signs it was going to cost me my relationship (He uses too) or / and my children. I thought I was ready and that by doing this would at least be me doing my best. That was July 2016. I was using probably 3 or more grams a day myself. I have slowed to maybe a quarter gram to half gram a day, on the days i use. But it still is using . I feel like I have lost my mind. I am now at a period of time where I can get sober sometimes for a day or week, but then fall back. I then struggle to stop again. I'll hide it from partner, not stick to my personally set end times.... I asked cps to get involved because I thought that would be a tool to use as I have quit before when facing them. It's not helping, it's making it worse. I go to therapy 1 a week, I do outpatient group 1 week, I started some classes to keep me busy 3 days a week.... still using. And I am lost on why, or what can I do? I have had many times over the 20 years where I have stopped. Why not now? I just thought I needed help learning how to stay quit. It's making me crazy and I don't know what to do. Is this when inpatient is needed? Am I fooling myself? I feel like I am. I feel like I am just not looking at reality. I hate feeling like I am riding a sinking ship that just needs me to take one step left to save it.