Hey there
First time poster here. I shall try and remain diligent to the forum rules but please correct me if i'm out of line.
I am starting to become unnerved by my reaction to mdma as it strikes me as unusual and i was wondering whether reactions to certain drugs have any known implications about mental health or susceptibility to psychosis?
I have a very overactive imagination normally. My aunt and uncle on my mothers side have suffered from psychotic episodes and at least one of them is diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic.
I usually dose around 300mg of mdma throughout a night. i have a typical come up period but as i plateau, things start to become very strange. I'm not sure whether these effects are typical of a mild trip or perhaps something i should be worried about:
First of all i start to recognise others as people i know even though they aren't that person. It starts off mild but can get to the point where i recognise almost every male/female of approximately similar height as the same person.
Usually I start to see facial distortions around this point but so incredibly vivd that it scares me. I see people who's faces consist of intricate face paintings and discolouration at best and at worst their faces become someone else or worse still, staring at me ominously and warping similar to the way 'aphex twin' does on his albums.
I see people and objects who aren't there. some objects look like they've had paint thrown over them or polkadots or as if im viewing them on a dusty vhs. They're not fleeting and I can go up to them and touch them and i dont consider that they arent real.
At its peak my mind wanders completely. I can never remember these instances but my friends and girlfriend have told me numerous times I've been stood with them talking as if we were somewhere else entirely for example at home cooking or on holiday.
I understand that mdma can cause mild trips and im not saying i dont enjoy it no matter how strange. I feel like there is much to be learnt within ones own mind, I'm just concerned about the intensity. Everyone looks at me like im nuts when i tell them and they've been taking the same stuff as me.
I want to experiment with more psychedelics as i do gain a sense of enlightenment and serenity about the world from all experiences but my reaction to mdma makes me think twice about delving in deeper.
Does anyone else react in a similar way?
First time poster here. I shall try and remain diligent to the forum rules but please correct me if i'm out of line.
I am starting to become unnerved by my reaction to mdma as it strikes me as unusual and i was wondering whether reactions to certain drugs have any known implications about mental health or susceptibility to psychosis?
I have a very overactive imagination normally. My aunt and uncle on my mothers side have suffered from psychotic episodes and at least one of them is diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic.
I usually dose around 300mg of mdma throughout a night. i have a typical come up period but as i plateau, things start to become very strange. I'm not sure whether these effects are typical of a mild trip or perhaps something i should be worried about:
First of all i start to recognise others as people i know even though they aren't that person. It starts off mild but can get to the point where i recognise almost every male/female of approximately similar height as the same person.
Usually I start to see facial distortions around this point but so incredibly vivd that it scares me. I see people who's faces consist of intricate face paintings and discolouration at best and at worst their faces become someone else or worse still, staring at me ominously and warping similar to the way 'aphex twin' does on his albums.
I see people and objects who aren't there. some objects look like they've had paint thrown over them or polkadots or as if im viewing them on a dusty vhs. They're not fleeting and I can go up to them and touch them and i dont consider that they arent real.
At its peak my mind wanders completely. I can never remember these instances but my friends and girlfriend have told me numerous times I've been stood with them talking as if we were somewhere else entirely for example at home cooking or on holiday.
I understand that mdma can cause mild trips and im not saying i dont enjoy it no matter how strange. I feel like there is much to be learnt within ones own mind, I'm just concerned about the intensity. Everyone looks at me like im nuts when i tell them and they've been taking the same stuff as me.
I want to experiment with more psychedelics as i do gain a sense of enlightenment and serenity about the world from all experiences but my reaction to mdma makes me think twice about delving in deeper.
Does anyone else react in a similar way?
