Hi,
First post and all. I'm 40 and have had a long history of drug use include psychedelics. I stared using drugs when I was 16 and first used LSD and shrooms at that age. This was before the internet and my circle of friends like most i'd guess just did it for the lols. Spirituality was not even a word I knew of. As the years when on other drugs took over. MDMA and Coke to name a few. LSD was just not my thing for many a year.
I got pretty bad with drugs and alcohol over the years and about a year ago I started to read up on psychedelics for healing properties. Anyway I started using shrooms and LSD trying to maybe work a few things out in my head about life and stuff. LSD never really done it for me but I had a few amazing shroom trips, the first at 2.5g being the best trip I've ever had. At this point I must confess in some circles I might be what you might call an alcoholic. I certainly abuse the stuff along with benzos. This 2.5g shroom trip really showed me that I was fucking up and to sort of get my shit together. Further shroom trips were more of a head fuck with those mind loops you get and not much introspective.
I decided to go with LSD as I'm told its more clear headed. Anyway my trip weren't all that. Maybe my doses where to low or the residual benzos in my system where taking the edge of. My highest dose I'd say looking back was around 150/200mic.
Anyway 2 weeks ago I decide to up it to 300mic as I was hearing a lot about LSD really starts its magic at higher doses. Set and setting where ok. In hindsight the set might have been better but we've all got life experiences we just can't forget about and I thought things were ok for the most part.
What was to follow was a trip to hell that words cannot even begin to explain. Now I know some people say there's no such thing as a bad trip. I'd just like to say that if you had been there with me you would change your tune right and quick. The trip came on really really quick. In hindsight I wasn't ready for the intensity of it and spiraled into a full blown panic attack and then what can only be descried as being pulled into the depths of hell.
The best was I can explain it was an intense feeling of a horrific mind loop where i had lost touch with reality and there was no way out. I was hanging on for dear life absolutely sweating buckets seeing things that no person should ever be put through. I would have took death in a heart beat to get out of this total horror.
About 2-3 hours in I got a small window back to reality and turned on my tablet and I think it was tripsit I got onto. It said if your reading this your having a bad trip and its the drugs. What got me out was trying with all my night to focus on keeping touch with reality and what was real. I opened up all the windows in my flat, Turned on all the TVs to normal run of the mill TV shows and walked none stop focusing on certain things out side of the flat on the balcony. I hear people saying don't fight a bad trip but I honestly think this is where I went wrong in going with it as it only took me deeper into the depths of hell. If I had only kept my eyes open and moved around but hindsight is a wonderful thing.
Even although I was still only 4 hours into the trip I was that beat that it felt like it was over. I have never cried so much since I was a child. Tears of pure fear. I was also shaking like a leaf with terror. In the mids of it like you do I begged everything that is good to get me thought this and I swear I'll never touch another psych as long as I live.
Well here I am thinking about tripping again. I sound mad but I truly fell like life just seems more colorful after a trip. I've heard people say you need to inter-great a trip but I truly don't know what this means unless it happens subconsciously. It really didn't tell me anything unlike shrooms .
I'm thinking of trying 100mic maybe in 2-3 weeks to test the waters and would appreciate any replies from anyone who has experienced similar.. I could go into greater detail but I'm sure you get the drift. What I will say is I think I'm more ready if this sort of shit ever happens to me again.
Cheers.
First post and all. I'm 40 and have had a long history of drug use include psychedelics. I stared using drugs when I was 16 and first used LSD and shrooms at that age. This was before the internet and my circle of friends like most i'd guess just did it for the lols. Spirituality was not even a word I knew of. As the years when on other drugs took over. MDMA and Coke to name a few. LSD was just not my thing for many a year.
I got pretty bad with drugs and alcohol over the years and about a year ago I started to read up on psychedelics for healing properties. Anyway I started using shrooms and LSD trying to maybe work a few things out in my head about life and stuff. LSD never really done it for me but I had a few amazing shroom trips, the first at 2.5g being the best trip I've ever had. At this point I must confess in some circles I might be what you might call an alcoholic. I certainly abuse the stuff along with benzos. This 2.5g shroom trip really showed me that I was fucking up and to sort of get my shit together. Further shroom trips were more of a head fuck with those mind loops you get and not much introspective.
I decided to go with LSD as I'm told its more clear headed. Anyway my trip weren't all that. Maybe my doses where to low or the residual benzos in my system where taking the edge of. My highest dose I'd say looking back was around 150/200mic.
Anyway 2 weeks ago I decide to up it to 300mic as I was hearing a lot about LSD really starts its magic at higher doses. Set and setting where ok. In hindsight the set might have been better but we've all got life experiences we just can't forget about and I thought things were ok for the most part.
What was to follow was a trip to hell that words cannot even begin to explain. Now I know some people say there's no such thing as a bad trip. I'd just like to say that if you had been there with me you would change your tune right and quick. The trip came on really really quick. In hindsight I wasn't ready for the intensity of it and spiraled into a full blown panic attack and then what can only be descried as being pulled into the depths of hell.
The best was I can explain it was an intense feeling of a horrific mind loop where i had lost touch with reality and there was no way out. I was hanging on for dear life absolutely sweating buckets seeing things that no person should ever be put through. I would have took death in a heart beat to get out of this total horror.
About 2-3 hours in I got a small window back to reality and turned on my tablet and I think it was tripsit I got onto. It said if your reading this your having a bad trip and its the drugs. What got me out was trying with all my night to focus on keeping touch with reality and what was real. I opened up all the windows in my flat, Turned on all the TVs to normal run of the mill TV shows and walked none stop focusing on certain things out side of the flat on the balcony. I hear people saying don't fight a bad trip but I honestly think this is where I went wrong in going with it as it only took me deeper into the depths of hell. If I had only kept my eyes open and moved around but hindsight is a wonderful thing.
Even although I was still only 4 hours into the trip I was that beat that it felt like it was over. I have never cried so much since I was a child. Tears of pure fear. I was also shaking like a leaf with terror. In the mids of it like you do I begged everything that is good to get me thought this and I swear I'll never touch another psych as long as I live.
Well here I am thinking about tripping again. I sound mad but I truly fell like life just seems more colorful after a trip. I've heard people say you need to inter-great a trip but I truly don't know what this means unless it happens subconsciously. It really didn't tell me anything unlike shrooms .
I'm thinking of trying 100mic maybe in 2-3 weeks to test the waters and would appreciate any replies from anyone who has experienced similar.. I could go into greater detail but I'm sure you get the drift. What I will say is I think I'm more ready if this sort of shit ever happens to me again.
Cheers.
