I'm already on 600mg a day of pregablin for phantom pains and neuralgia. Had a couple of benzos for sleeping first couple of days but they make me so depressed I've learned to try avoid them so I dont do something daft, you know?
I have a lot of weed to smoke and I'm hoping to level out a bit. I've got a few busy days ahead hope that keeps me busy. It's more a psychological thing which needs retraining. Today feels like the hardest craving wise.... I miss drugs. Any drug. But after a two year binge following my heroin honeymoon I guess this is natural. Stupid brain stupid neurotransmitters and chemicals. I go from wanting to nod out to something nice, to wanting a bit of coke just to help me with the weekend, to thinkkng about something like dmt, then remembering my stash of mushrooms, or what other meds are in the house. Just a little pick me up would be so so nice right now...... Or how many oxycodone I would have to take to get some form of effect? Sigh. Ad infinitum.
At least all the IV stuff has gone so thats one less worrying thing.
I just want to say 'for heaven's sake girl, pull yourself together!'